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Leave it to Beavers: Aurora 12

Jake was gone when I woke up.  It would be really nice to have a nice wake-up fuck.  But they say beggars can’t be choosers.  Someone had turned off the strobe light, but I have like flashes of my hand gripping Jake’s beautiful cock.  I can still smell vanilla lubricant.  I can smell Jake’s sweat and the smell of sex.  I pull out his shirt that I stole and sniffing it makes my clit pulse.  I rub it wishing it was Jake’s hand and not mine.  I really have to stop thinking about him!  I like thinking about him and his beautiful cock, but I hate thinking about him and how annoying he is!  It is an impossible situation.  I needed professional advice. 

Who better than Dr. Hanzon?  He quickly got me in for an appointment.  He always made time for me.  And for Piper and Josie.  The Diamond Club Experiment never lacked for medical attention and Dr. Hanzon never lacked for sexual exercise.  Anyway, he took me into one of the examination rooms and he knew right away it wasn’t for a typical “examination”.  He may have been my first man cock fuck when I was 16, but now I was totally focused on one cock only.  Which was a very BIG problem for me.  I explained to Dr. Hanzon that I needed advice for a friend.  My friend was fucking a guy and he couldn’t remember fucking her.  And my friend wanted to help the guy remember.  So, I said I would talk to you about it.  I explained how my friend thought he had a beautiful cock and he would fuck her cunt and fuck her ass and she would suck his cock and his cum tasted really good and she just wanted to fuck him all the time and that she worked with him but only like saw him once a month so that wasn’t really good even though the fucking was good and how he had went out on a date and kissed the woman and remembered doing it but couldn’t remember fucking her cunt and her ass or how good it felt having her suck his dick… I should say I was calmly pacing back and forth in front of Dr. Hanzon… and how although he is respectful to her, he doesn’t even acknowledge how good her pussy tastes or how he likes to suck on her nipples and lick her ass and he went on a date with a fucking vegan named Mona or Lucy or something and she must be a bitch with a name like that.  So, can you help her???  Hanzon had a look of bewilderment and nodded his head like doctors do when they are thinking.  He asked if my friend had feelings for this guy.  NO!  I have… I mean, she doesn’t even really like the guy because he is so fucking annoying and about how he constantly talks about how all he wants to do is photograph Wild Beavers in the Wild and like what a stupid thing to say and how he has this annoying lock of hair that hangs down his forehead and how I just want… I mean, how she just wants to push it back and how he is so annoyingly nice to everyone.  So, NO, she doesn’t have feelings for him at all.  She was just looking for advice on how to help him. 

Then Hanzon says that the problem may not be the guy’s even if he cannot remember having sex with your friend.  Maybe there are deeper issues.  Maybe the guy doesn’t take her seriously.  Maybe the guy is traumatized by the sex and blocks it out.  Maybe the guy wants a friend.  But then again, maybe the real issue is with your friend.  What???  Yeah, like maybe your friend doesn’t want to accept her feelings for this guy.  Maybe she should just try to be his friend first.  Well, this was an absolute waste of time.  I left Hanzon none the wiser except for maybe that all men were idiots. 

Ivan called and told me the next photo shoot was going to be western themed.  He explained how there would be fittings at the Mansion.  Whatever, sure.  He said that we, the DICE, would get fitted out in western clothes and that they had rented out a farm with horses.  I don’t really like animals too much, but hey, I was being paid and like the photo shoots were the only time I could see Jake.  The fittings were nothing really new.  We had done fittings in the past.

I met Piper and Josie at the Mansion.  There were a lot of people there and they had a whole set up in the garage.  Jake was even there with his camera.  That was a pleasant surprise.  Ok, so it was a very nice surprise, but I didn’t show it.  Jake seemed very interested in the whole process of picking out our clothes and I will admit, all the attention was nice.  I made an issue when it came to the lingerie because we were told to leave our underwear on.  There was only one reason why I wanted to take my underwear off, but he calmed me down when he said that I was going to look super hot as a cowgirl.  Well, he said that to all of us.  All I heard was that he thought I would look super hot.  That made me feel good.  Not sure why.  Measurements were taken and our clothes were picked out.  We had fun playing with the guns and Jake took some pics.  I have to admit I had fun. 

Several days later, Jake drove us to the farm where we were given some horseback riding lessons.  The farm didn’t just have horses.  It was a full working farm with cows, pigs, chickens, ducks, dogs and cats.  I was just relieved there were no rabbits.  The horses were huge!  I could barely get into the saddle, but Jake was there, along with our trainers, so, it wasn’t too bad.  There was a strong odor of horse amongst all the other animal smells.  I was happy that I only have plants in my apartment.  The trainers took us through the basics and all I could think about was my cunt being bounced around in that leather saddle.  Jesus, how do women ride horses without being horny all the time!  And a couple horses had HUGE cocks!  Afterwards, Jake dropped us back off at the Mansion and I was so tired that I totally forgot about him washing us off. 

However, the smell of the horses and the other animals gave me a brilliant idea!  Days before the actual shoot I would stop bathing.  I was going to make myself stink!  It was like the best idea I had so far!  I realize I have discussed in the past about a woman’s natural scent, but this went beyond that.  This was like full blown woman stink!  I would fuck Jake and he would be forced to inhale my smell.  After all, cowgirls in the old west didn’t actually have access to bathing facilities so they must have stank.  I was just fulfilling my role.  So, five days before the shoot I stopped bathing.  And I have to say, I was stinky even to myself.  You know you stink, when you can smell your stink!  And to think this was all for Jake.  He better appreciate it!

The day of the shoot Jake drove us to the farm in the truck we had used for the hitchhiking run.  I was in the front seat feeling that thrill of excitement that goes with having a plan.  A female plan.  There were already people there to help us get dressed up as cowgirls.  The ones helping me looked at me strange.  Yeah, I stink.  Do your job.  After we got dressed, Piper, Josie and I thought we looked super hot!  Jake was right.  But he was still annoying. 

Jake decided to do the horseback riding shots first.  As we walked to the corral, the animals started following me.  Like all of them.  A cow, pigs, chickens, ducks, dogs and cats!  All of them trailing behind me.  Eventually, the trainers had to shoo them away.  We got onto our horses and Jake took his photos of us in various poses trotting, walking, with our pistols drawn.  People were watching and clapping and enjoying the show.  It was fun.

Then there was an area set aside where people were not allowed to watch.  Not that I cared.  This was so Jake could get shots of us more naked.  I say more naked because we still kept our hats and guns and boots and gloves on.  Piper and Josie were more aggressive than usual.  They didn’t say anything, but they were like all over me with their noses and hands in my pits and between my legs!  I was even getting turned on… which doesn’t take much.  I asked Jake if we could take some more shots of us on the horses.  So, they brought the horses and the horse trainers back in.  I had Jake help me into the saddle, but this time I made an effort to struggle.  His face was like right next to my ass.  Take a deep breath, Jake!  We went through the shots again and this time I am riding in the saddle with my bare pussy grinding against the leather.  I imagined there were going to be a couple horse trainers sniffing that seat later!

The shoot ended.  It was a long day as Jake drove us back to the Mansion.  Fuck!  It was a long fucking day!  We were all dusty and sweaty and well, especially me, stinky!  Piper and Josie were already fucking in the back seat.  They were extremely horny today.  I had my lingerie back on and I couldn’t help but stick my hands in my panties in anticipation.  Jake parked the truck in the garage and Piper and Josie immediately got out and raced into the house.  Jake and I got out and without even saying a word he followed me into the house too.  We went up the stairs and I led Jake into the master bedroom.  No shower this time, Jake.  I sat on the bed and ran my hand over his crotch.  I put my mouth on the outline of his cock.  Pushing.  He took off his shirt as I unzipped his fly.  I couldn’t help myself.  I had to have his beautiful cock in my mouth.  I took it all in.  I love his cock.  He pushed me back onto the bed and spread me legs.  His face was soon rubbing and smelling the stench of my panties and cunt.  I closed my eyes it felt so fucking good.  Even I was getting turned on by my smell!  Who would have figured that a dirty cunt could be such an attractant?! 

He peeled off my panties and kneeling on the bed between my legs he put them to his face inhaling deeply.  I stroked his beautiful cock.  It was hot and I could have easily shoved it into my cunt.  Tossing my panties away, Jake then picked me up by my ass, still kneeling and my legs went over his shoulders.  Deep into my wet and stinky cunt he shoved his 7 inch tongue.  It was like he was at a buffet and wanted to eat as much as he could.  His tongue was all over my pussy and butthole.  He kept running his nose over my clit.  Fuck!  He gets me fucking turned on so fucking fast!  I wrap my legs as tight as I can behind his head.  I don’t want him to stop eating my cunt!   HOLY FUCK IT FEELS GOOD!!!  I was hoping for a nice leisurely fuck.  I should have known better.  Full on fuck mode was coming!  How long Jake was eating and licking and spitting all over my cunt, I can’t remember.  My mind loses itself in the pleasure of his tongue!

He unclenches my legs and lowers me down to his waiting cock.  My shoulders are still the only part of me touching the bed.  My legs go around his waist now.  He rubs the head of his cock slowly against my clit.  Teasing me.  Fuck, Jake.  Stick it in already!!  He sticks the head of his cock and just the head in my cunt!  And fucking leaves it there not moving!  FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!  I am totally under his spell.  I sniff my hairy armpits and pinch my nipples.  I shake my head back and forth!  And then he slowly slips his cock in, inch by beautiful inch until he has completely buried himself in my love machine… and I grip it with all the strength of my vaginal muscles!  And only then does he start to fuck me!  I close my eyes.  It feels so fucking good!!!  My mind is gone!!!  FULL FUCK MODE!!!  I thrust against him as he fucks me! 

He turns me on my side.  My one leg is underneath him.  I can feel his balls on my leg as he continues to fuck my cunt!  He is hitting different spots inside me!!  How does he know how to do this???!!!  FUCK ME, JAKE!!  He picks up my other leg and starts sucking on my stinky toes.  THE SENSATION!!!  I FUCKING CAN’T GET ENOUGH OF HIM!!!  FUCKING MY CUNT AND SUCKING ON MY TOES!!!  He turns me once again onto my backside and once again he runs his cock all over my cunt and clit and he even runs it over my asshole.  I am thinking he is going to fuck my ass, but he is just teasing.  Instead, he easily slips back into my pussy.  His weight is now completely on me.  I can’t move.  I don’t want to move!  His tongue explores my mouth.  My tongue explores his!  And he is still fucking me!!!  I AM LOSING MY MIND!!!  He picks up the pace of his thrusting!  I want his cum inside me!!!  I don’t want him to cum yet!!!  I WANT HIM TO KEEP FUCKING ME!!!  And the smell of my stinky body fills the room.  FASTER AND FASTER HE FUCKS!!!  His entire body goes rigid!  And with a final shove I feel his cock explode!!!  AAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!  I scream with unfiltered orgasm!!!  MY GOD!!!

Blissfully… and covered in sweaty wet stink and the smell of sex, I fall asleep with Jake on top of me and his beautiful cock still inside me…

Leave it to Beavers: Jake 13

Ivan called and said he really enjoyed the western shoot.  The photos were amazing!  And that I was doing excellent work and the ladies really loved working with me.  It is always nice to hear compliments on your work.  However, being modest, I said the credit should really go to the women of DICE.  And I really meant it.  After all, they were my friends… or at least that is what they said.  Ivan said either way, the investors at StarDreamers really appreciated the work and they decided to offer a work/vacation getaway.  Cool!  They were going to rent a cabin in the mountains by a lake and that I would have a variety of ways to photograph the ladies.  The cabin had a fireplace, a dock with a motorboat, a hot tub, and all in the scenic mountains.  This was incredible!  It would be just like going home to Easter Bay!  Without Mom and Dad of course.  I cannot even imagine doing … well, doing what I do with Mom and Dad watching!  Nightmare!!!  Anyway, getting away from the city and being in the woods was like a dream.  I might even, I hope, I hope, to see some wild beavers!!!  I wish I could have called or texted the ladies, but of course in my contract there is a no contact clause.  Not sure why.  I have to go through Ivan for all the arrangements. 

I really didn’t have to make any plans to pack as I was so used to being in the woods that my stuff was pretty much ready to go.  I would have liked to have gone hunting, but wasn’t sure if the ladies would like that too much and it was only for a weekend.  But, I could still go fishing!  I was so looking forward to this.  We were to leave on a Friday and return on the following Monday.  It was late summer so the mountains were going to be so beautiful and the trees would just be beginning to turn colour for winter.  I couldn’t help but smile thinking about it!  I arrived at the Mansion early Friday morning and parked my soft serve melted vanilla ice cream smelling Chevy Nova in the garage.  There was a new Audi A7 all ready for us to take to the mountains.  The ladies were already there and after warmly greeting my friends, I quickly loaded their stuff, along with mine into the trunk of the Audi.  I couldn’t believe how much room there is in the back of an Audi!

We set off.  Our destination was already pre-programmed into the car’s navigational system.  Super easy.  Although, I grew up with maps that my Dad taught me how to read.  Aurora sat up front and seemed very eager to see the mountains.  It was going to be about a 4 hour drive and Piper said she had made a playlist of classic rock songs on her phone.  I also grew up on Dad’s love for classic rock.  It always made long drives way more enjoyable.  The mountains soon loomed towards us and traffic became less and less.  Tom Petty was playing Southern Accents.  The sun was shining, but you could sense a slight drop in temperature and the elevation made my ears pop. 

We passed a large sign that said we were now in bear country.  Home!  Well, not quite.  Aurora, for most of the trip had been quiet until she saw that sign.  She was asking if that sign was a joke.  And I said no, we are in bear country.  She started to become a little frantic.  Okay, she became a lot frantic.  Piper and Josie attempted to calm her down.  I reassured her that more people were killed by moose and elk and deer than bears.  We probably wouldn’t even see a bear.  Bears tended to stay away from humans.  She really had an animal phobia.  Then I remembered her being uncomfortable around the animals at the ranch even though they all seemed to be attracted to her smell.  I told her that she was more likely to see moose, elk, deer, maybe a mountain lion, birds, rabbits…  She freaked when I said rabbits!  Are there white rabbits??  White rabbits?  Apparently, she was even more afraid of white rabbits than bears.  Did I say Aurora was strange?  I said if there were any rabbits they would not be white since it wasn’t winter.  It didn’t really seem to help.

For the rest of the drive she would go through periods of pensive silence and then ask me a litany of animal questions.  Finally, I told her to relax, which later in life I would realize you never ever say to a woman, that I grew up in the mountains and I would be there to protect her and Piper and Josie.  She made me promise to protect her.  Of course, I promised.  A vacation with a hysteric woman is no vacation. 

We arrived at the cabin in the afternoon.  A log cabin and the scenic view was all I imagined.  The air felt so clean.  Piper and Josie ran down to the dock.  Aurora asked if I would help her check out the cabin.  She just wanted to be inside for a bit.  I think she was still feeling nervous.  I really did feel sorry for her.  The cabin had that inviting rustic smell of wood.  There were photos hanging from the walls of all sorts of animals that could be found in the area.  A stuffed deer head hung over the fireplace.  None of this seemed to sooth Aurora.  She insisted that I check out all the rooms.  And afterwards she asked me to check them again.  Holy.  The cabin was spacious.  The kitchen was well stocked and the dining room table resembled a picnic like table.  There were multiple bedrooms and also a couch with a pullout bed.  Off the kitchen was a deck with a BBQ and a Jacuzzi.  It was very nice.  Piper and Josie came in and said the view from the dock was incredible.  There was a nice boat and you could see little fish swimming around the dock. 

By the time they got themselves settled it was later in the afternoon.  Piper and Josie took a room together and Aurora took her own room.  I decided I would sleep on the couch pull out.  For dinner we agreed that I would cook some burgers on the BBQ and the ladies would make a simple salad.  It was almost … homey.  Almost.  There were still a couple hours of sunlight so I suggested that the ladies enjoy the Jacuzzi and I would take some pics.  Get a head start.  They all got into their bikinis and jumped into the Jacuzzi.  Even Aurora.  Although, just not as enthusiastically.  The sun was like just behind them and there was even a view of the dock.  It made for some excellent pics.  Afterwards, I made them some cocktails while I enjoyed my beer.  It felt nice to be able to just relax with them and watch the sunset.  They did ask if I wanted to join them.  I respectfully declined.  I really didn’t want to get into the Jacuzzi with these 3 naked women.  After all, they were my friends.

We were all a little tired from the drive and add a few alcoholic beverages it was soon time to turn in.  Josie and Piper went to their room and Aurora went to hers.  I was a little surprised Aurora didn’t join the other two, but I guess she was just tired.  I got a fire going.  I just love sleeping next to a fire.  I heard some grunts and moans coming from Piper and Josie.  That wasn’t really a surprise.  It did make me smile.  I was soon in bed myself, lulled to sleep by the dark night and the crackling of the fire.  At that moment, I couldn’t think of a place I would rather be. 

I woke the next morning and found Aurora in my bed curled up behind me.  It was still early morning.  I wasn’t sure what she was doing there, but I decided to let her sleep.  I wanted to go fishing anyway.  I quickly dressed and grabbed my gear.  I went down to the dock.  The lake was calm and there was a morning mist hovering over the surface.  I could hear loons in the distance.  I should have brought my camera, but there was always tomorrow.  I settled into my fishing and soon caught a couple nice trout.  Dinner for tonight.  I missed this.  Nothing could break this tranquil moment. 

Except maybe a scream coming from the cabin.  What was going on?  I dropped my pole and rushed up to find Aurora in hysterics!  Piper and Josie were trying to console her, but she looked at me and crying kept asking me where I went and why did I leave her alone and she could have been killed by white rabbits or bears or moose or elk or sharks or … WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME!!!???  Josie went and came back with a glass of water and some pills that she said were muscle relaxers.  She gave one to Aurora.  And soon, thankfully, Aurora began to calm down.  She said she was sorry.  She just panicked.  She had a bad dream.  Wow!  I am so grateful I am not a woman.  Aurora was strange to begin with, but she always seemed so in control.  After being tucked in by Piper and Josie, she finally fell into a peaceful sleep on the pull out bed.  What a morning.

Later that day, Piper and Josie joined me down by the dock so we could get some pics of them pretending to fish.  For most of the day they had been watching Aurora and after she woke and apologized again, she said she would take a quick shower and join us after.  The ladies were wearing waders and tight shorts with a fishing vest just barely covering their bras.  They had on sunglasses and cabin hats.  Their lines didn’t actually have any hooks or bait.  It was all for show.  They posed in various seductive positions and I captured them from various angles.  It was nice. 

And low and behold if Aurora didn’t come down to join us.  She hugged everyone, but me.  But she looked nice.  She had made a jug of orange juice with vodka and we were soon enjoying cocktails and taking pics.  They soon lost their waders and shorts and underwear.  They were left with sunglasses, hats and their vests.  Piper could have gone without a vest she was just so … big.  And Josie’s snake glistened in the water.  They were all laughing.  They would slap their poles in the water and Aurora was holding the pole from the wrong end and while I kept taking pics, I just thought these women were nuts!  And then… Aurora stood straight up in the water and did a nose plant into the lake!  Like face first!  Of course I got an excellent pic of her going in, but then we all looked at each other expecting her to get up.  She didn’t!  I rushed in and picked her up into my arms.  She was choking and gasping.  I had Piper and Josie run up ahead to get some towels as I carried Aurora back to the cabin.  She was squirming and laughing and singing.  For someone so petite, she was heavier than I imagined.  She grabbed my head and kissed me!  I mean she really kissed me!  And then she just laughed!  She was clearly out of her mind.  The women dried her off and got her back into bed.  She was still babbling incoherently.  Josie discovered her pill bottle on the counter and she guessed that Aurora may have taken another 2 pills!  No wonder and that was with the vodka and orange juice.  That was it for the day.  No one was leaving Aurora alone. 

We spent the rest of the day looking after Aurora and we also decided to cut our vacation short and leave the next day.  I did end up cooking my trout with some mushroom rice on the side.  Everyone enjoyed it.  Everyone, but Aurora, who was still asleep.  Then we, except Aurora, played a game of Monopoly to pass the time.  After that, Piper and Josie got into some pajamas and I took some more pics.  They were even able to get Aurora in her pajamas and positioned her in some pics even though she was completely passed out.  It was rather easy to do because she always wore sunglasses anyway. 

Piper and Josie convinced me it was a good idea if I slept with my arm around Aurora.  At first, I was hesitant.  They were worried she might wake up and hurt herself so I reluctantly consented.  After all, we slept together the night before.  Piper and Josie went to their room and I crawled in behind Aurora.  It felt weird putting my arm around her.  I had to get close to her.  But… it was for her own good.  She smelled nice.  She was warm.  She grabbed my hand and held it to her chest.  I fell asleep breathing in her scent.  I had some nice dreams that the next day I couldn’t remember. 

I woke up the next day to the smell of coffee.  Usually, I am the first one to wake.  But Piper and Josie were making breakfast.  Eggs and bacon and toast and fresh coffee.  Aurora was still asleep.  But shortly, even she was awake.  She asked what had happened and when we explained she apologized for ruining everyone’s vacation.  We told her that we were leaving a day early.  I made up some excuse that I had to get back early for some various reason.  And after breakfast I loaded up our gear in the Audi A7 and we left.  Aurora was in the back seat behind me and Piper sat up front.  The trip back was quiet and uneventful.  I did get some excellent shots so it wasn’t all a waste.  Aurora was explaining to Josie and Piper how sorry she was and that she had this huge dread of animals.  Especially white rabbits.  She watched this movie, The Holy Grail, and there was a white rabbit that bit people’s heads off.  She was never able to get over it. Hours later, we arrived at the Mansion.  I unloaded the Audi A7 and hugged the ladies goodbye.  I told Aurora to take care of herself and I would see her soon.  Better I hoped.  She still seemed out of sorts.  After loading it up, I got back into my soft served vanilla ice cream smelling car and headed home.  As I was pulling out of the driveway, I imagined I heard someone call my name, but no, I really only imagined it.  Right?

Leave it to Beavers: Aurora 14

I was so happy to wash the stink off.  The things I do for Jake.  He was of course gone when I woke up.  I can’t seem to catch a break.  It would have been nice to have him take a shower with me and get me cleaned up.  With just his tongue.  But that wasn’t the case.  I would have to wait like another month to see him.  As much as he was so annoying, I was getting more and more annoyed having to wait a month between fucks!  What a stupid rule!  And some may think it’s no big deal.  After all, I am Spiritual Healer.  I fuck for a living!  But I no longer want to fuck anyone else!  I have completely lost interest.

Ivan later called and said he had a special surprise for us.  We would be going to a log cabin in the mountains for a vacation.  It would be 4 days and 3 nights.  We would also be working, but at a more relaxed level.  This was incredible!  3 nights with Jake!  Oh my God!  Ivan said a whole bunch of things that I didn’t pay attention to.  I could really work on just being his friend!  Yes, Piper and Josie would be there, but I knew I could make time on just being alone with Jake.  I imagined us sitting by a fire, watching the sunset over the mountains, holding hands, and not saying too much because I am really not interested in what Jake has to say.  Jake’s mouth and tongue have one purpose in my mind.  And then as the sun sets, he picks me up in his strong arms and carries me to the cabin.  We kiss the whole way.  And he takes me into our bed and fucks me and fucks me and fucks me.  All night.  And in the morning, we wake up and he again fucks me and fucks me and fucks me…  Whew!  That is a lot of fucking!  I am so going to enjoy this trip!!

The Friday arrives and we all meet at the Mansion.  It seems like forever since I saw Jake.  Unfortunately, he was more interested in the car we were to take on our vacation.  He called it a Howdi.  What a stupid name for a car.  He loaded all our stuff and we were soon heading out of the city on our grand adventure.  I was in the front passenger seat.  Music was playing and it was a beautiful day.  Jake said it would be about a 4 hour drive.  And for the longest time, I really didn’t have anything to say.  It was like writer’s block.  I felt stupid and it was all Jake’s fault!  We absolutely have nothing in common!  I guess we have beavers in common… that made me laugh.  Jake just looked at me and I just shrugged with a smile.  Let him wonder. 

Jake said we were getting closer to our destination.  There was very little traffic and not much to see, but trees and trees and more trees.  Up ahead a large sign came into view.  At least it broke the monotony.  The sign said we were entering Bear Country.  Wait, what??!!  I looked at Jake.  Bear Country??!!  Yup was all he said as if it was the most normal thing!  I guess he realized I was nervous because he then went on to say, in an attempt to comfort me, that there were many other animals in the mountains that were worse than bears.  Like sharks, lions, elephants, whales, dinosaurs… You are not making me feel better Jake!!!  Tell me there are no rabbits!  Oh yes, a lot of rabbits.  I am scared to death of rabbits!!!  I felt myself start to panic.  This is not at all what I expected.  Jake seemed so calm about everything.  He was so fucking annoying!!!  I couldn’t think.  Rabbits. 

We arrived at the cabin.  I half expected it to be over run with rabbits.  But I didn’t see any.  I didn’t even want to get out of the stupid Howdi.  But I did.  Piper and Josie said they wanted to check out the dock.  I insisted that Jake take me into the cabin to check it out.  I had him check every room and then I had him do it again.  There were pictures of animals covered in blood hanging from the walls.  There was a deer head, at least Jake said it was deer head, above the fireplace with fangs.  I shivered.  What had I gotten myself into?  All in all, the cabin was very nice. 

Jake went down to the dock.  I stayed inside and made some excuse I can’t remember, but I watched out the picture window and saw Jake and Piper and Josie laughing at something on the dock.  Getting along with Jake seemed so easy to them.  I was almost jealous.  Almost.  Later, they came back in and they made supper while I sat on the sofa feeling like the odd man out.  I was hungry and the burgers and salad they had made hit the spot.  Then they moved outside and were sitting on the deck having cocktails.  Piper and Josie came in and said they were going in the Jacuzzi and asked if I wanted to join them.  Jake was going to take some pictures.  I reluctantly agreed.  I still didn’t feel really comfortable outside.  But Jake was there and by this time I was tired of Piper and Josie having all the fun.  We posed in the jacuzzi in our bathing suits but soon they came off.  Piper and Josie started making out, but I wasn’t really interested.  I did some kissing and touching for the camera and for Jake. 

The sun was setting and we all went inside.  I couldn’t believe how exhausted I was.  Must have been the clean air or the long drive.  Piper and Josie took a room together.  I took my own room.  Part of me hoping… hoping Jake would join me.  He didn’t.  Instead, he took the sofa’s pull-out mattress near the fireplace.  I went to bed alone.  In my room there was a picture of a beaver staring back at me.  Great.  I got into bed, closed my eyes and pretended I didn’t hear moans and grunts coming from Piper and Josie.

I dreamt of King Arthur.  It was a favorite dream of mine.  But my version had a twist.  King Arthur didn’t pull the sword Excalibur out of a stone to become king.  Excalibur was really a mighty cock that he pulled out of his armored pants and when Princess Cunnivere saw it, she sucked and fucked his mighty cock making him King of the land and King of Castle Cumalot.  But soon, good ol’ King Arthur started paying more attention to the land and not to Queen Cunnivere.  This was bad because Queen Cunnivere was horny like all the time and needed sexual gratification in order to be a good and just queen.  With his attention focused elsewhere, King Arthur asked his best and most loyal friend Sir Lancelot, who looked a lot like Jake, to guard and take care of all the Queen’s needs.  Well, he wasn’t called Sir Lancelot for nothing and soon, with Queen Cunnivere prancing around naked half the time and horny as a Queen bitch in heat, they soon began to fuck a lot in Castle Cumalot and the Queen enjoyed his lance a lot!  But then my dream turned to the quest for the Holy Grail.  I had watched a movie called the Holy Grail and Arthur had sent out his knights, including Sir Lancelot to find it.  But they came across a cave guarded by a terrible monster.  A white bunny rabbit.  They all laughed at the monster until it started flying through the air and biting the heads off the knights with blood gushing from their necks!  It was terrible!!! 

I woke up.  I thought I heard something coming from outside.  A white rabbit?  I couldn’t get back to sleep.  I left my room.  Jake must have made a fire and its embers were casting haunting reflections around the room.  I saw Jake sleeping on his side snoring peacefully.  I didn’t want to wake him so I curled up behind him under the blankets.  His warmth comforted me.  He farted.  Gross.  And yet, curious, I put my head under the blanket and the smell wasn’t all that bad.  A kiss would have been nicer.  Instead, I get a fart.  I fell asleep cozied up behind him.

I woke up.  Light was coming through the big picture window.  Jake was gone… wait, Jake was gone!!!  I totally panicked!!  I screamed!!!  JAKE!!!!  JAKE!!!!  My hands were shaking.  My body was trembling.  I was having a hard time breathing!  JAKE!!!!  Piper and Josie rushed out from their room alarmed by my screaming.  They tried to console me.  I was crying.  Jake came in through the front door.  I looked at him.  WHY THE FUCK DID YOU LEAVE ME!!!!????  Sobbing uncontrollably.  RABBITS!!!  RABBITS!!!  Josie got me a glass of water and a pill.  It was a muscle relaxer.  I stopped sobbing long enough to swallow the pill with some water.  And then, Piper and Josie sat next to me holding me until I calmed down.  The pill was taking affect.  I looked at Jake.  Why did you leave me alone?  All he said was he was sorry.  Then I fell into a slumber numbed by the pill. 

I woke up.  Piper and Josie were soon by my side asking how I was feeling.  I said I was sorry that I was ruining their vacation.  As good friends, they brushed it off.  It happens to everyone, even men.  Jake really felt bad though.  But don’t apologize to him.  Just act like everything was normal and we all agreed to do just that.  We were supposed to do some fishing photos.  Josie asked if I would be up to it.  I didn’t have to, but it would be nice if I joined in.  I was feeling a lot better.  The pill had definitely done the trick.  I just needed a quick shower and I would meet them down by the dock.  I was actually feeling a little giddy and the shower relaxed me even more.  I decided to make a jug of vodka and orange juice to take down to the dock.  On the counter I found Josie’s pill bottle.  Well, the first pill made me feel relaxed, I figured I would be even more super-relaxed if I took another!  But why chance it??  I took 2.  And headed down to the dock.

The sun was out with just a light breeze.  It really was a beautiful day.  The breeze seemed to almost float me down to the dock.  I felt like I was spiritually connected to everything around me.  I was pretty sure I could fly if I wanted to!  They were all happy to see me and of course I pretty much ignored Jake.  I poured us all drinks and soon Jake was taking his pics.  I couldn’t stop goofing around and laughing.  I made stupid jokes that I thought were brilliant and I made stupid ridiculous poses that I cannot even remember and everyone was having a great time laughing with me… or at me.  Not sure which.  And then… I was in the lake.  Which is weird because I am not a fish.  But I was breathing underwater!  And a fish came up to me and we started talking.  And it said you cannot breathe underwater.  Hey, you’re a smart fish.  Did you learn that in school?  I laughed.  And it said stop with the old “fish in schools” jokes.  Sorry.  And I was about to discuss life further with the fish when someone picked me up!  Very irritating!  How many times in life can you have a meaningful conversation with a fish!

It was Jake.  I was in his arms and I was laughing, but I could have been choking.  Hey Jake, I like your farts.  They stink.  I laughed!  He was doing his best to carry me, but I was kicking and squirming and doing my best to irritate him.  I think I kissed him.  Maybe I kissed the fish.  I was standing in the cabin laughing.  I couldn’t stop laughing!  Jake was rubbing my tits and had a hand between my legs and that felt good.  About time Jake.  Then I realized it was Piper and Josie drying me off.  I looked up at the deer head.  Do you realize you lost your head???  I laughed and even the deer was laughing!

Then I was in Jake’s bed.  And I was totally out.  Gonzo.

I woke up.  Moonlight was coming in through the picture window.  Moonlight?  What had happened?  What did I do?  And then I felt Jake’s arm around me.  I was lying on my side and he was snuggled up behind me.  I had his hand clasped against my chest.  I felt safe.  And warm.  And he smelled nice.  Then I felt something against my tailbone.  He had a hardon and the head of his cock was on my tailbone!  And he was fast asleep!  I wanted to reach around and touch it.  I thought I could slip down my pajama bottoms ease it between my legs and rub it up against my cunt.  That would feel good!  But I didn’t.  Besides the fact that I was still lightheaded, I remembered what Dr. Hanzon said about being his friend.  And so… I closed my eyes and enjoyed his touch, his smell, his warmth, his presence…

I woke up.  Seems like this whole weekend all I have been doing is waking up! 

Jake said he had to cut the trip short and we were leaving today.  I didn’t even know what day it was.  Piper and Josie had agreed and my brain was still in such a whirl that before too long we were driving back home.  I was sitting behind Jake and Josie was beside me encouraging me to drink water.  Okeedokee.  I was even dressed.  Someone must have dressed me.  I wasn’t tired, but it was like I was floating and everyone and everything around me was dreamlike. 

We made it back to the Mansion.  Piper and Josie took me inside and sat me on the sofa.  I vaguely recall Jake coming in and saying he hopes I feel better soon.  That’s nice.  And then he was gone.  Where is Jake?  Piper said Jake left.  I screamed. 

Leave it to Beavers: Jake 15

I decided to head home.  I am not even sure why.  Maybe I missed Easter Bay.  The time at the log cabin in the mountains with the DICE was just not enough.  Maybe I just needed to see my parents and reconnect.  But honestly, I don’t know.  After, the fiasco of the last shoot, which didn’t end up being a vacation at all, something in me just didn’t feel quite right.  Like I was lost. 

I hopped in my soft serve melted vanilla ice cream smelling Chevy Nova and headed home to Easter Bay.  Maybe I just needed direction because as soon as I left the city, I was already feeling better.  More at ease.  Less irritated even though for the life of me I had no idea why I would be irritated.  A few hours later I was pulling down the driveway to my home.  Easter Bay was beautiful and a welcoming site.  Mom came running out surprised to see me.  I guess I should have called, but I didn’t think of it.  The first thing she asked was if anything was wrong.  No.  I’m fine.  I just wanted to get away from the city.  She just nodded like she knew something I didn’t, oh okay. 

It didn’t take me long to get settled into my old room that was still decorated with all my beaver shots.  It was early afternoon and Dad asked if I wanted to do some fishing.  Yes!  Being out in the boat with Dad was just so tranquil.  I could just focus on the sounds and the smells of the lake.  I didn’t take my camera which was unusual.  You never know what you can capture in a moment.  We were soon on the lake anchored at one of our favorite fishing holes.  It was warm and the sun felt nice.  I was wearing sunglasses.  Dad mentioned that I had forgot my camera.  I just nodded.  Is everything okay?  Why would he ask that?  Yes, Dad.  Everything is fine.  He just nodded.  We didn’t catch anything and he said we should call it a day. 

Mom had cooked meat loaf with gravy and veggies for supper.  I loved my Mom’s meat loaf!  We sat down at the kitchen table as we had done so many times before.  I found myself playing with my food not thinking of anything really.  My Mom asked how the job was going?  It’s fine.  Like I could really tell her I photograph naked women doing things to each other.  Dad asked how the car was running?  It’s fine.  Like I could explain how it smells of soft serve melted vanilla ice cream because these women were … eating it and licking each other in the back seat!  They then talked between themselves.  I didn’t quite finish all my supper before I asked to be excused.  Mom asked if I was feeling okay?  I am just a little tired.  Holy!  What is their problem?

I went to my room and laid down on my old comfortable bed staring up at the large beaver shot on the ceiling.  However, I wasn’t thinking about beavers.  Strange, I was thinking about how I wish I had brought the white lace panties with the faint yellow stain.  I enjoy smelling them.  Aurora had worn them.  She was so strange.  She never wore jewelry or perfume.  She did have a nice smell to her.  Even without the white lace panties with the faint yellow stain, I could still smell her scent.  Her hair.  Yes, she didn’t shave her armpits!  All women shave their armpits.  But not Aurora.  Her smell when I was lying next to her in the log cabin.  Her warmth.  Her heart beating.  My feet had this peculiar sensation as if they were being poked by toothpicks!  Strange.  She was strange.  I only slept with her because Piper and Josie had insisted.  It was just to protect her from hurting herself.  She was so drugged up thinking about white rabbits.  She even kissed me she was so out of it.  Her lips.  She was strange.  We had nothing in common. 

I stayed at Easter Bay a couple more days even though I wanted to leave like right away.  I tried my best to act normal and avoid any further concerns from Mom and Dad.  As strange as it might seem considering how I was looking forward to coming home, I was even more relieved to be heading back to the city.  I was looking forward to getting back to work.  I was hoping Aurora was doing okay.  I found that strange because, other than work, I had no real interest in Aurora. 

Soon thereafter, Ivan called.  I apologized for the last set of photos, but he said they were great.  They were, as he put it, hilarious.  He was amazed at how we all worked so well together.  He also added it was after all supposed to be a type of vacation.  I was baffled.  Not what I was expecting.  Actually, I didn’t know what to expect.  The next assignment was relatively simple.  It would involve motorcycles and the DICE would be fitted out in racing leathers.  Each member would have an individual set and then there would be a team set.  The leathers would all be custom made.  I asked if he, or the ladies, needed me to help with their fittings.  Nope.  Damn.  Their measurements were on file.  The bikes would be set up ahead of time in the garage at the Mansion so all I had to do was show up and take my shots.  I could coordinate the photos, as usual, with the ladies. 

I didn’t have much to do so in the mean time I went and rented a copy of The Holy Grail.  I guess I wanted to see what had freaked Aurora out.  It was actually a comedy.  That kind of surprised me.  Unfortunately, I was never a big fan of English humor.  Just silly nonsense.  I mean pretending to ride horses by clapping coconuts together!  Stupid.  But for Aurora, I watched it anyway.  And there was a white rabbit that flew through the air and bit the heads off of some knights.  And it was bloody so I can understand how Aurora had an issue with white rabbits.  She just didn’t seem to be one who would be freaked out about anything.

The day of the shoot arrived finally.  I drove my soft serve melted vanilla ice cream smelling car over to the Mansion.  Sure enough, the bikes were in one of the stalls.  The stall had been completely painted white for the background.  The bikes were all Ducatis and of different colours.  Really nice bikes.  I road dirt bikes and Quads growing up, but never saw the use of a sport bike.  But they were still nice.  Piper and Josie were already there getting into their leather outfits.  Piper was in red and Josie had a blue outfit.  Made sense.  The bikes were red, white, and blue.  The leather was pretty tight so I did my best to help them get dressed up.  They were also wearing underwear that matched their outfits.  They had helmets, gloves, biker boots, jackets, and of course pants.  Their jackets had DICE over the left part of their chest.  They both laughed as I did my best to get their pants on.  Aurora showed up just about that time.  It was nice to see her and I asked how she was doing.  She said fine.  I left it at that.  I asked her if she needed help getting her suit on.  She said she could manage.  She is so strange. 

I first took individual shots of Piper and Josie on their bikes.  There was no actual riding.  They just posed.  Then they posed with their jackets off, pants off, helmets off, and finally everything was off.  Flesh hung all over the bikes.  All this time, I kept a vigilant eye on Aurora getting dressed in her white leathers.  She was also wearing white lace panties and I couldn’t help but think of the white lace panties with the faint yellow stain that I still had.  Aurora posed just as the other two ladies had, but there seemed to be an almost negative like energy coming from her.  Like she was angry.  It was strange, but so was she.  She smiled and all that, but something was off.

They all got dressed up again and posed for group photos.  The white background, the beautiful Ducatis, and the women in leathers made for vivid images that were nothing less than spectacular.  Then their clothes started coming off and then… well their tongues and legs and flesh… began doing what they usually do and I just kept snapping.  I mean this was just normal to me now.  Afterwards, Piper and Josie went to go get washed up.  Aurora however, wanted some more personal pics.  She almost like aggressively insisted.  Okay.  I thought she was going to get dressed again, but no, she just began doing things to herself.  Spreading her legs and lying on her bike… moaning.  She was actually moaning.  Rubbing herself on the leather seat.  Then she was bending over the bike with her hand between… and her fingers… anyway, I took her photos until she said she was done.  She is really strange.  And sweaty. 

I started putting my camera away and she said what are you doing?  I am just getting ready to leave.  Ah, I don’t think so mister.  Oh, right.  I am sweaty and smelly and it is your job to clean me up.  Okay, now she seemed like upset about something.  Are you alright?  She gritted her teeth!  What was up with this strange woman???  Come with me!  Okay.  So, I followed her into the Mansion.  And up the stairs.

I woke up lying on my back in the master bed.  Aurora’s head was on my chest.  Drooling.  Her hair was all matted across her face and neck.  It was nighttime.  There was a strong smell of sweat in the air.  Piper and Josie were asleep on the other side of the bed.  I slid out and tried to get to my feet, but I almost fell over.  My legs were like rubber and I felt like I had run a marathon.  My lip hurt and I could taste blood.  What happened?  I must have had a major seizure and the women took care of me.  Lucky to have them as friends.  My earlobes even hurt.

I weakly made my way to my car.  I don’t have any clue how I got home.  I just remember flopping onto my bed absolutely exhausted. 

I was surrounded by that black fog.  Except I was a wolf and I was running as fast as I could through the black fog.  My canine sense of smell was powerful and I picked up a scent far off in the distance.  I raced towards it amazed at how fast I could run.  The scent was getting closer.  I was hungry for it.  I wanted to discover what it was.  And then, it was gone and I felt incredible disappointment.  But then off in another direction, it was back.  And I raced towards it… running… through the black fog.

Leave it to Beavers: Aurora 16

I really wanted to be alone, but I was very grateful that Piper and Josie stayed with me for an extra day at the Mansion.  They wanted to make sure I recovered from the muscle relaxers enough that I could look after myself.  I ended up staying at the Mansion an extra day by myself.  I was extremely embarrassed about my behaviour at the cabin.  I am not normally like that, but it was all Jake’s fault.  Well, somehow, he had to be the blame.  He was so annoying. 

I decided to go home and see my parents.  I don’t know why.  Maybe just to clear my head.  My Dad was off somewhere flying planes, but my Mom was home.  She was surprised to see me.  She gave me a motherly hug and it felt nice to be home.  Then we sat down and she started talking about her job at the hospital and in the ICU and I really had no interest.  She paused and asked if anything was wrong?  No.  Nothing’s wrong.  Why would she ask that?  So, she started back talking about her job and Dad and the house and politics and nothing I really wanted to hear.  The thing is my Mom knew what I did for a living.  She just didn’t want to talk about it.  I think I made her feel uncomfortable.  Even though she would never say so.  It was a mistake coming home.  It was a nice visit, but I made up some excuse for leaving.  If anything, it got my mind off of Jake for a couple hours.

Irritably, I went back to my apartment and watered my plants.  I don’t know why I was irritated.  I do know why I was irritated.  I haven’t had sex in over a month and I won’t be seeing Jake for almost another month!  Sex for so long has been like my drug!  I enjoy it.  I feel empowered by it.  I can easily go have sex with someone or I have enough sex toys that I could masturbate, but … it’s just not what I WANT!  I think I am going crazy.  Jake, Jake, Jake.  JAKE, JAKE, JAKE!!!  I want to smash his face!  Just tackle him to the ground and start smashing his face into pulp!  No, I don’t.  Maybe just one good smash!  I wouldn’t do that.  What is wrong with me???  He’s too strong anyway.  He has nice muscles.  The way he picked me up and carried me from the lake.  And, of course, I know all his other muscles very well.  I know his smell.  His taste.  The way he touches me.  And, I also know he doesn’t remember any of it!!!!   AARRRRRRRRRRR!!!

I go to bed wearing his shirt.  It smells of Jake’s manly scent.  It comforts me and helps me drift off to sleep.  I just need a nice relaxing sleep.

I find myself in a courtroom.  Piper is the judge.  Josie is typing away on some machine that I have no idea what it does.  They are both naked.  I am naked.  Jake is standing in front of the judge naked with a hard on.  This is all so bizarre.  Piper asks me why we are here?  Good question.  Well, it is your dream, Aurora.  Right.  Now I get it.  Jake must be punished, Judge Piper.  For what?  He cannot remember us having sex!  I didn’t know that was a crime.  Well, it should be, your honor.  Ask him if he remembers.  Piper asks Jake, but he doesn’t say anything.  You see!  He is an absolute annoying idiot!  And what is worse, he has this beautiful cock!  Look at it, your honor.  Yes, I know.  We have all sucked on and fucked his cock.  But the court still does not know what you want.  This is your dream.  Alright, at the cabin we slept together.  Yes, I was on drugs, but I remember that his beautiful cock was nestled against my tailbone… and well, we didn’t have sex!  It is totally unfair!  So, what is he guilty of?  If you were on drugs, then you really couldn’t give your consent, right?  No!  That is just it.  I say Jake is guilty of a more malicious and insidious crime: NON-CONSENTUAL NON-SEX!!!  That doesn’t make any sense.  I know!  It is like… a psycho disorder… Non-consentual Non-Sex NONSENSE!!  He is tormenting me, your honor!  So, why is it so important that he knowingly has sex with you?  Because, if he knows he is having sex with me and enjoys it, then I can deny him sex and torment him!  I see says Judge Piper.  Jake is, without knowledge, tormenting you by having sex with you that he doesn’t remember and the only reason you want him to remember is so you can torment him.  Well, I don’t want to hurt him.  Wait a second.  This is my dream.  Even if you are the judge, how can you be more logical than me?  As the judge, in your dream, maybe you already know the answer to your own torment. 

I woke up with a headache.  I know I dreamt about something, but I can’t remember what.  That happens sometimes.  I don’t know why.

I try to keep myself busy, but my mind wanders to thoughts of Jake.  I find myself getting more and more irritable waiting for the next photo session when I will see him again.  And yet, I don’t know what, if anything, I will say to him.  Hi Jake, I had a really good time at the cabin… while I was stoned out of my tree!  STUPID!!!  And it makes matters even worse, when he doesn’t say anything himself!  That is not entirely true.  He says nice things like how we all look nice and we are friends and how he enjoys working with us.  He never swears either.  Like what the fuck is up with that???  Who doesn’t swear… even sometimes?  He is just so nice that he is ANNOYING!!!  He must have some bad traits.  He did fart when I slept with him that first night.  Is that it?

Finally… finally… FINALLY!!!  Ivan called and said the next date was set up and it would be relatively simple.  Right, simple!  Ivan has no clue what is going on.  I have no clue what is going on!  He said there would be motorcycles and the DICE would be wearing leathers and it would be in the garage of the Mansion.  All I needed was the date and where to show up so I could see Jake!  Why did that make me mad… or at least irritable?  I don’t know.  I so want to smash his face!  No, not really.  FUCK!

The date arrived and I was running late which is not like me!  I made sure I was clean, checked my look in the mirror, made sure my sunglasses were looking good, my hair, smelled my pits, checked out my tits, made sure my pussy was smelling nice.  Check, check, and check!  Not that it really mattered.  It was like I wanted everything to be perfect!  That annoyed me too!  Jake would say something stupid and irritating like I looked really nice.  It made me smile thinking about that.  Stupid!

I did arrive late.  Jake was helping Piper and Josie into their leather outfits and they were laughing and seemed to be having a good time.  Jake saw me, said hello, and that I looked really nice.  I felt myself glow.  Annoying.  At least he didn’t mention the trip to the cabin.  He asked if I needed any help getting into my leathers.  No, I’m fine.  When women use short answers with men, that is a clear sign of irritation.  I did not want to be irritated.  I actually wanted Jake to help me get dressed and touch me and run his hands all over me.  He said, okay, and smiled, and then began taking photos of Piper and Josie posing on some type of sport bikes. 

They were doing individual shots and although Jake, as always, was focused on his job, every now and then I noticed him glancing over at me.  Good.  Or maybe I just imagined it.  He captured them in various forms of undress as usual.  And by that time, I had gotten ready for my turn.  I was in white leathers and had a white bike.  I went through the same routine posing and shedding off all my clothes.  I even had white panties.  Intentionally.  We then did a set with all of us.  Dressed and undressed.  Piper and Josie were kissing me and rubbing me and it felt really good, but I just… wasn’t as interested.  My clit was throbbing.  I couldn’t wait for the shoot to end.  I wanted to get Jake upstairs!  Finally, it was over and Piper and Josie went inside.  I insisted that Jake take some more shots of just me.  I sat on my bike grinding my cunt along its leather seat.  Pinching my nipples until they ached.  I then bent over the front of my bike and pulled up hard on my white lace panties.  My wet pussy lips exposed.  I finger fucked myself as I ran my other hand between my butt cheeks.  I was so fucking horny.  I wanted so badly to turn Jake on, but he just kept snapping photos.

I had enough!  He was pissing me off and I felt like this negative energy.  I told him I was finished.  He said okay.  ANNOYING!!!  He started to pack up his camera.  What are you doing???  Just getting ready to leave.  Oh no, you are not!  You are so not finished with me!  And I turned and headed inside.  He had to follow me.  I knew he was following me.  He better fucking be following me!

And up the stairs we went.  And into the master bathroom.  He was already starting to take his clothes off!  It’s like that dog that starts salivating when the bell is rung!  I looked at him and his cock… his oh so beautiful cock was already hard!  I so wanted to get on my knees and start sucking on it.  Slip it into my mouth and feel its heat.  But instead, I said what are you going to do with that?  He just looked at me.  Hello!  And I slapped him.  HELLO!  Anybody in there?  I grabbed his cock.  It was so hot and felt so good.  The head was so swollen.  As it should be.  We haven’t fucked in like 2 months!  I said WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WITH THIS???!!!  That stupid look again!  I slapped him again!  And then his eyes took on this fierce look.  What did I just do?

He picked me up and kissed me hard!  FUCK YOU JAKE!  As I kissed him back driving my tongue into his mouth.  He carried me into the shower.  My legs automatically wrapped around his waist.  I was hanging on.  My arms on his shoulders.  He slammed me up against the shower wall.  Somehow, he turned the water on.  I gasped as ice cold water hit my body!  Then it turned really hot!  I was yelling at him!  MOTHERFUCKER!!!  ASSHOLE SON OF A BITCH!!!  He rammed his cock into my cunt!  My head went back!  It took my breath away and then… he started fucking me.  But it wasn’t just a nice easy fuck.  He was fucking pounding me!!!  It was like a piston and all I could think was thank God I was so fucking wet!  I screamed!  FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUUUUUUCCCCCKKKK YOOOOUUUUUU!!!  But he didn’t stop.  He just kept on pounding.  I slapped him.  He slapped me back!  I was pinned.  I pulled his chest hair.  He pinched my nipples!  I bit down on his earlobe.  He growled and I growled back!  Our mouths met.  I snapped at him and he grabbed my face and kissed me hard again.

He carried me out of the shower towards the bedroom.  I was screaming the whole time and I don’t know why.  He couldn’t fuck me and walk and so I had to bounce up and down on his beautiful cock!!!  YOU FUCKING PRICK!!!  I yelled and I SCREAMED!!!  I was losing my mind.  The intensity!  The FUCKING INTENSITY!!!  At first, I didn’t notice, because I was too busy, but Piper and Josie were already on the bed when Jake and I collapsed onto it.  I gasped again, as the weight of our fall drove his cock even deeper inside me.  He hit my G!!!!  HOLY FUCK!!!  He started hammering me again!  This is insane!!!  I have totally lost my mind.  How does he know how to FUCK like this???!!!  Still fucking me, he flips me over, drives my head into the mattress and, without missing a beat, begins thrusting from behind!  I mean… how??  I was like a rag doll in his clutches!  I can do this… I can do this… any moment, he will blow his load.  And he pulls out… here he comes and he does!  BAMMMMMM!!!!  No, he doesn’t cum CUM.  His cock drives right into my ASS!!!  FUCK YOU!!!  And now, he is doing a piston job on my butthole and it fucking hurts!!!  What are you doing to me you FUCKER???  His hands grasp my butt cheeks.  I cannot escape him.  I don’t want to escape him.  We are so wet from the shower and from our sweat… I can barely breath…  I cannot think.  I am being split in two and as much as it hurts every part of my body is on fire with pleasure.  My clit is pulsing.  He grabs my ankles and it forces me flat onto the bed.  My legs are like ski poles and he bites down on my feet!  OWWW!!!  I am flapping my arms and shaking my head yelling and screaming!!  I very briefly look over and see the looks of shock on Piper and Josie.  He lets go of my feet.  Thank you.  And then… he yanks me up by my hair!  OWWW!!!  FUCK YOU JAKE!!!  He is still fucking my ass, but now one hand reaches around and pinches my nipple!!!  His other hand comes around and starts finger fucking my wet cunt!!!  JESUS CHRIST STOP ALREADY!!!  DON’T YOU DARE FUCKING STOP!!!  I feel tears on my face.  We are both lathered in sweat and pussy juice and … I think there must be blood coming from my ravaged butthole…  I twist and we find each other’s mouths and tongues… we growl and nash our teeth!  I find his lip and I bite… I bite and I taste his blood!  I am hungry!!!  He pushes me back down onto the bed.  I am screaming, but now my head is swinging up and down with my screams!  MOTHERFUCKER!!!  AHHHHHH!!!! 

And then… I lose myself… I have never had an out of body experience before.  I find myself rising from the bed.  I see Piper and Josie staring at us in disbelief.  I am surrounded by the cosmos.  Have I died?  Did Jake kill me with that beautiful cock in my ass?  Piper and Josie seem to fade away… and I see a mare being fucked by her stallion!  She is flailing her head around in distress.  Then… there are two wolves… a bitch in heat being fucked by her alpha male both are growling and biting at each other.  Then I see a cave with a fire and there are two hairy humans… I recognize myself pinned down by Jake and he is fucking me hard… fucking my ass.  And we are clawing at one another.  Spitting. 

I come back to myself.  I am back on the bed and Jake is still slamming my ass.  Don’t stop.  Please stop.  Every muscle in my body quivers.  I can no longer fight him.  I am wrecked.  I feel him pull out and salty seed splashes across my back up to my neck.  I reach around and run my fingers weakly into his sperm as another jet of liquid lust splashes onto my hand.  With hunger I lick his taste off my fingers as one final blast of his man honey falls across my back.  He rubs it into my skin with his hands and then falls on me.  I cannot breathe.  His heat.  I feel both our hearts beating.  We are saturated and he shoves his fingers in my mouth.  I have to lick them.  I feel his breath on my neck.  His cock finds my cunt again.  My clit pulses.  His weight is crushing me and I don’t care.  I know I don’t have much time left… I slip…

Leave it to Beavers: Jake 17

I hardly ever sleep on my stomach, but I must have been so exhausted that I just passed out.  My body ached.  And yet, there was also this overwhelming sense of exhilaration or… accomplishment maybe.  I rolled over and stared up at the ceiling and without thinking I reached out and found the white lace panties with the faint yellow stain.  I put them to my face and inhaled.  More than anything, they always seemed to relax me.  I had become very familiar with their scent.  I closed my eyes and just relaxed.  

Sometime later, I awoke.  Well, I don’t think I slept long if any, and decided to get up.  My lip was still swollen and my earlobe hurt, but for the most part I was fine.  I loaded up the pics from the prior day’s shoot, I think it was yesterday, onto my computer and sent them to Ivan.  I thought they had turned out very well.  I enjoyed working with the DICE, even more so now that we were friends.  At least, they said we were friends.  I couldn’t help, but look over the previous shoots.  The first hotel shoot where they were just in lingerie.  I remember being in shock at what … they did to each other.  Even now, part of me questions whether their behaviour then and now is even normal.  And, whether my photographing them is acceptable.  But then, what is normal?  And as I look at the photos, I see them as not a fantasy, but human beings.  My friends.  And although I am more comfortable speaking and interacting with Piper and Josie, I have gotten to see a sensitive side to Aurora.  I don’t think a razor has ever touched her.  She has no tattoos.  Wears no make up or jewellery.  Not even perfume.  And yet, I always felt this disconcerting power emanating from her.  Aggressive.  Maybe that really changed when we went to the cabin in the mountains.  She clearly displayed a vulnerability.  It made me look at her differently.  More human.  Of course, we did sleep together.  Not SLEEP sleep, but just sleep.  Twice in fact.  She smelled nice and she was warm.  I remember her heart beating against my chest and my hand on her chest.  And her kissing me when I carried her from the lake… in her drug addled state though so it really meant nothing.  Then, there was the baseball pics and the soft serve vanilla ice cream cones.  The melted ice cream all over the back seat of my car while the ladies… did what they did.  My car still has that smell.  And that is when I found the white lace panties with the faint yellow stain.  I did plan on returning them.  Did Aurora leave them on purpose?  She has never brought them up.  Part of me thought she just forgot.  But what if she hasn’t forgotten about them?  Well… that just doesn’t make sense.  So much has happened.  I was honestly going to quit after the first hotel shoot until I was paid and then the contract was even more and I couldn’t refuse the job.  I remember at the time thinking, I will just take the photos and complete the project and keep things professional.  But now, we’re friends… I look forward to seeing them.  I enjoy working with them, but I also enjoy laughing with them.  They have become part of my life.  I guess to a certain extent… I care about them.  Unconsciously, I continue to look through the past photos.  It seems like a dream now. 

About a week later, I was sitting on my couch thinking about watching… anything on TV, just to pass the time, my lip and earlobe were much better, it was raining outside, and a strange thought crossed my mind.  I really don’t know what made me think about it, but I remember when I was younger asking my parents how they had met.  I guess at some point everyone wonders the same thing.  Where did we come from?  I asked my Dad first and his explanation was a little far-fetched even hearing it as a kid.  He said that he had discovered Mom in the woods while searching for foxes.  And he thought she was quite a fox.  So, he clubbed her over the head and dragged her to his man cave where he dazzled her with his intelligence.  And they have been together ever since.  Right.  I then asked Mom.  She said ask your father.  I already did.  Oh, did he tell you that he clubbed me over the head.  Yes.  She laughed.  Mom, please.  Okay, it wasn’t quite like he told you.  We were at a high school dance and I had noticed your father talking to a couple of his buddies.  He looked handsome.  I had seen him before.  His buddies left him alone to go talk to some girls.  He seemed so alone.  By himself.  So, I walked over and I asked him if he would like to dance.  And he danced with you?  And that was it?  Do you want to hear this or not?  Yes, sorry.  In fact, he turned me down.  I didn’t think he liked me.  But I was determined.  Later in the summer, I saw him in a hardware store looking at fishing gear.  I asked him if he remembered me and he looked a bit sheepish and said yes.  He then asked if I liked to fish.  Which I didn’t.  Of course, I said yes, would you take me fishing?  We ended up going out on his parents’ boat.  It was a beautiful summer day and I had absolutely no interest in fishing.  We anchored out into a little cove and set about fishing.  I asked him if he would like to kiss me.  He was shy. but do not tell him I told you that.  Okay, then what happened?  We kissed and I can still remember that first kiss.  So, when he tells you he clubbed me, it was in fact the other way around.  We never did dance, but we fished a lot.  And, we have been together ever since.

Funny, the things we think about.  My memories.  Their memories.  I wonder what Aurora thinks about.

Ivan finally called.  He said the last photos were very racy and the investors really liked them.  I didn’t admit this to him, but I couldn’t recall much of the photo shoot so, in fact, they must have been racy they were such a blur.  He said the next photo shoot was being arranged right now.  He thought I would really enjoy it.  It was going to be in a saloon/pub.  The down side was that the shoot would have to take place in the wee hours of the morning when the place was closed.  There would be animal trainers and a couple actors as well.  Animal trainers?  Yes, for the dogs.  I am to photograph the DICE at a saloon with dogs… and actors.  Yup!  Don’t worry about anything.  I worked everything out with Aurora and she will fill you in.  A couple days later, Ivan called back and gave me the date and location.  He said the ladies would meet me there so I could just go directly to the shoot and use my own car.  Okay. 

I arrived at the pub, called The Sensational Pub, at about 3 am.  Everyone was already there.  Piper, Josie, and Aurora all seemed very concerned about my well being.  I’m fine.  Are you guys okay?  They nodded and said they were okay.  Great.  The bar was incredible.  A lot of wood and polished brass and leather covered bar stools.  The lighting was perfect.  The entire atmosphere gave a sense of an old English pub.  Aurora took my hand and walked me through the bar.  She introduced me to the dog trainers and the dogs.  There was an English Bull dog, of course, a Beagle, and brown Labrador retriever.  I still had no idea what the dogs were for.  Aurora laughed.  She showed me a poker room that was located in the back of the bar.  Interesting.  The “actors” were a burly bartender and an old man that was to be a patron.  I began to get the picture.  No pun intended.  I laughed.  This was going to be a fun shoot.  Aurora said she was glad I liked it.  With a smile.  We soon got down to work.

The ladies were dressed in evening dresses.  Very expensive and yet, obviously revealing, dresses.  Aurora wore white, Piper had red and Josie wore yellow.  They had on high heels and Aurora wore lipstick and earrings and even a necklace.  I was somewhat surprised since she hated that stuff.  I guess she was going all in.  I would soon find out that they had matching panties, but none of them wore bras.  They began by posing at the bar on the leather bar stools.  The old man patron was at the far end of the bar acting oblivious to the women.  The bartender’s part was to pretend to polish glasses with his back to the women.  It was awesome!  And the dogs were lined up staring at them while they posed!  So funny.  And they posed.  They posed with their legs spread.  Cupping their … well, upper endowments.  The dogs licked their lips and the old man patron drank his beer.  They hiked up their dresses to their waists and dropped their panties to their knees spreading … the dogs were great sports and stared fixated up at their … parts.  The bartender kept cleaning his beer mugs.  And I kept snapping my pics.  The dresses were soon off and the ladies drank beer from beer mugs and poured beer on themselves and the dogs licked up any beer that was on the floor.  You cannot make this up!  We then went back to the poker room … with the dogs.  What was going to happen here?  Aurora smiled.  She, at least, appeared to be coordinating everything.  The trainers got the dogs dressed up in like gambling outfits and sat them interspersed between the ladies who were still naked.  Oh!  I get it!  The idea was that they had been playing strip poker and the dogs were winning!  Wow!  This was great and I kept snapping pics.  The dogs would look at the women and the women would look somewhat defeated.  It was a lot of fun. 

Finally, it was over.  The DICE took selfies, with their dresses back on, with the dogs and their trainers, the old man and the bartender.  Everyone had a good time. 

Aurora came up to me still smiling.  Did you have fun?  Yes, it was a lot of fun.  She said she really wanted to do a more professional shoot and she hoped that she did all right.  I then said, words which I will never forget, like ever, You all did really good work, kiddo.  I said it with a smile on my face.  But… her smile slowly faded.  What?  Whack!!!  She slapped me!  I mean she hit me so hard my head spun.  It stung!  I had to blink quickly having lost focus.  I heard the front door of the bar open and close.  The dogs started barking and howling!  The trainers and actors were trying to calm the dogs down!  I looked at Piper and Josie.  They asked what I had said?  I told them.  They shook their heads and said I shouldn’t have said that.  Said WHAT?  Should I go after her?  They put up their hands and said emphatically, NO!! 

And that was the end of one of the best shoots we have had.  I still have no clue what I did or said that upset Aurora so much.  She is so strange.  I will never forget her sting.  I hope I don’t get fired.  But here is the thing I really don’t understand, the slap didn’t bother me or the thought of being fired, no, the thing that really bothered me the most was upsetting Aurora.  And I don’t understand why?

Leave it to Beavers: Jake 19

Disturbed.  Perturbed.  In Suburbia.  Disturbia… 

Sitting on my couch still wondering what I did.  Women!  I thought we were friends.  So, I called her kiddo?  I was just being… like… friendly!  I realize that I have not thought about wild beavers in the wild in awhile.  I cannot wait to get focused on just that.  I have Aurora’s white lace panties with the faint yellow stain in my hand and I bring it up to my face smelling its sweet scent.  I almost feel guilty inhaling her aroma.  But it still puts me at ease.  Aurora.  So strange. 

The phone rings.  It’s Ivan.  We just finished the shoot a couple hours ago.  What could he want?  I feel a sense of dread.  Hello.  What happened?  Ahhh, nothing really.  I was told you upset Aurora and she slapped you.  Is there something going on between you two?  No!  I mean, we’re just friends.  That’s it.  Did you call her kiddo?  Yeah.  Listen, Jake, you have done excellent work, but in all the time you have taken their photos you failed to realize they were WOMEN?  Not KIDDOS?  Umm, well, of course… I was just trying to be friendly.  I have to tell you something Jake, Aurora set up that entire shoot.  It was all her idea AND I got the distinct impression she did it for you.  Are you sure there is nothing going on between you two??  Because I do NOT want Aurora upset.  It was like all her idea?  Yes!  Wow.  I guess she was just being nice.  I am not going to mention this to the StarDreamers investors.  They would be very upset.  I spoke to Aurora and she said she was sorry she slapped you.  She said she had been drinking champagne and it was very early in the morning and she just emotionally over-reacted.  I thought she was drinking beer?  Jake!  Pay attention!  Everything is worked out.  Send me the photos when you get a chance.  Should I like apologize?  No!  Don’t even mention it.  I will call you later to arrange the next shoot. 

I didn’t know she arranged the entire shoot.  No wonder she was upset.  And she did it for me?  Everyone is saying don’t apologize.  I want to apologize.  I feel stupid.  Do all women make you feel stupid?  It must be something in their DNA.  Man, she slapped me hard.  Wicked, strange woman. 

Over the next couple weeks, I did my best not to think about Aurora.  Easier said than done.  The more you try not to think about something, it seems the more you think about that something.  That something being Aurora.  I was dreading, somewhat dreading, the next shoot.  I don’t know what I should say or how I should act.  I just don’t know.  She is my friend after all.  Isn’t she?

Ivan called and said the photos were great.  Some of the best so far.  He didn’t mention the slap at all.  I was relieved.  Maybe he just wanted to get past it and maybe I should too.  He said the investors wanted a photo shoot outdoors, but in the rain with the DICE wet.  So, the weather was going to be the factor.  Everyone would gather at the Mansion when there was a chance of rain.  And so, the following week when rain was forecast, we did just that.  Gathered at the Mansion.  There were no hugs this time.  The mood was somewhat tense.  The ladies had different outfits on.  Aurora was dressed in white jeans with a nice patterned top and black leather boots.  Piper and Josie had skirts and blouses with high heels.  Their clothing was not really important.  It was the rain that mattered. 

We set off in a van that morning heading for downtown.  It was Sunday morning so the city was not that busy.  It was sunny at first but the dark clouds soon moved in.  You could feel the drop in temperature.  And then the rain started.  They first posed at a fountain and with the rain and the water from the fountain and there was still sun streaming down I captured some great shots.  There was even a rainbow!  The DICE were soon soaked and dripping wet.  I thought it would be a good time to get some coffee and wait a few hours.  Find another location as well.  The ladies appreciated the idea although Aurora still seemed somewhat aloof.  And she started to sneeze a bit.  Our next location was a bench in the middle of the city.  The rain was really coming down now and I really limited the amount of shots we took.  They were cold and drenched.  Hot Chocolate!  They liked that idea as well and tried to warm up as much as they could.  Aurora was sneezing more, but she said she was fine.  I was a little concerned, but felt like I should just mind my own business.  A few hours later, in the early evening, we found a bus stop as our last location.  There were trees hanging over that were dripping with rainwater.  Even though the rain had lessened, it was still coming down.  As they posed, soaking and wet, three young men came walking up wondering what was going on.  They were not interested in me and it soon became apparent they were drunk.  One of them started to harass Aurora.  She swore at him.  And then he pushed her to the ground and into some mud.  I saw red.  I didn’t even think.  I just reacted!  I went and punched the guy in the face!  I must have broken his nose because blood gushed and he fell to the ground.  His buddies looked at me and decided to just pick their friend up and leave. 

Aurora looked at me.  She was sobbing.  Covered in mud.  I picked her up.  Her head was against my chest and she blew her nose into my shirt.  Snot was hanging from her nose.  Josie opened the van door and Piper got in first and helped me get Aurora in.  She has a fever.  What?  Piper had her hand on Aurora’s forehead and said again, she has a fever.  I drove them back to the Mansion as quickly as I could.  I have to admit I was concerned about Aurora… and getting out of my snot covered shirt.  We were all pretty much soaked, wet, and muddied. 

Once inside the Mansion, I carried Aurora to the upstairs bathroom.  We all agreed that she needed a hot bath.  At this point, she was pretty much out of it.  She said she was cold.  Piper and Josie seemed to know what they were doing getting Aurora undressed and into the hot water.  I asked if they needed my help and they said we could all use maybe some soup.  Great!  That I could do!  I went down to the kitchen which was well stocked.  Found some chicken broth and decided to make some chicken noodle soup.  There were chicken breasts in the freezer which I soon defrosted and cut into small chunks.  I fried them in olive oil with some red-hot sauce.  It would all be diluted in the broth anyway.  But would add just a bit of spice that I think we all needed.  Into the broth I added the chicken and some noodles and seasoned it with some salt and basil.  Normally, I would also add some veggies like carrots and celery, but the broth was more important.  I let it simmer. 

I was just about to head back upstairs when the ladies came back down.  Aurora was wearing flannel pajamas and looked worn out.  Piper helped Aurora to the couch and Josie covered her in a blanket.  Piper and Josie said they had to leave and could I watch over Aurora.  Me?  They said they had to go.  Okay.  Can I have a quick shower first?  Yes.  They would watch over Aurora while I had a shower.  I was cold myself.  I went back upstairs and got out of my wet and muddied clothes and snot covered shirt.  I cannot believe I cooked soup like that.  I got into the shower and let the hot water warm my body.  Strange, I suddenly had this strong sense of déjà vu.  I got cleaned up and put on some clean clothes I had brought with me for just this reason. 

I went downstairs.  Piper and Josie were still sitting with Aurora.  They said they had found some cold medication and given it to Aurora.  She was still hot though.  I asked them if they were going to have some soup, but they declined saying they really had to go… and so, they left.

Okay, now what?  I went and got a small bowl of soup for Aurora.  I cooled it down with a little milk so it was just warm.  I sat next to Aurora on the couch and tried handing her the bowl.  That didn’t work.  So, I spoon fed her.  And she ate the entire bowl.  Well, it was a small bowl.  She appeared dazed.  I set the bowl aside and wondered what I should do next.

Jake?

Yeah.

You hit that guy.  You smashed his face.

I reckon so.

Why?

He hurt you.  I could see her lip quivering. 

You did it for me?

Well, you’re my friend.  I then realized she may also be in shock.

Jake?

Yes.

I’m sorry I slapped you. 

That’s okay.  I’m sorry… I called you kiddo.  I smiled.  She gave me a hint of a smile back.  Hey, I understand you set up that entire shoot.  That was amazing work.

You really liked it? 

Yeah. 

Jake?

Yes.  Holy, this was dragging on.

I’m sorry, Jake.

No… ahhh… what?  And she leaned in … and kissed me.  Her lips.  They were soft.  I could taste the chicken noodle soup on her breath.  This is the second time she has kissed me.  This one seems… more sincere?  More honest?  She fell over into my arms.  I think she passed out.  The drugs!  Just like the last time she was medicated and probably didn’t know what she was doing or saying.  That was somewhat of a relief.  I guess.

I picked her up again and carried her upstairs to the master bedroom and got her into bed.  She spoke again and said she was cold and to please not leave her.  She wanted me to hold her for warmth.  I sighed.  Okay.  I already slept with her once and nothing happened so I think I was safe this time too.  I got undressed and slid in behind her.  As I put my arm over her, she placed it under her flannel pajama top with my hand on her very warm fleshy chest.  She held it there as she pushed herself back into me.  I could feel her heart beating.  I could feel her breathing.  Even through the flannel pajamas, I could feel her heat.  I could smell her.  I could smell her hair.  I could smell her sweat.  I could still taste the chicken noodle soup on her breath.  After she had kissed me.  Her lips were so soft.  I closed my eyes and drifted off.

When I awoke, she was facing me.  She was breathing steadier now and her breath gently caressed my face.  My hand was still on … her chest and she was no longer burning up.  Her fever had subsided.  I was almost tempted to stay, but thought if she woke up it would be really awkward.  I rolled her over and sighing, I removed my hand.  Quietly, I got dressed and went downstairs.  I noticed the soup and thought I should at least leave a note for Aurora.  I found a pen and a notepad.  Aurora, there is still plenty of soup.  You should have some more.  Hope you are feeling better… s… I was going to write slappy, but that just seemed stupid.  And it probably wouldn’t go over well.  So, I hastily wrote something else and signed it, Jake. 

Where should I leave it?  So, she could easily find it?  I didn’t want to wake her, but I went back upstairs anyway deciding to leave it on the night stand next to her.  I found her still asleep.  She was smiling.  It made me smile.  She must be having a nice dream.  A ray of sunshine radiated her face.  As I looked at her… it occurred to me how… I had taken so many photos of her and not really seen the human part of her.  The vulnerability.  Like at the lake when she was afraid.  Afraid of white rabbits.  And how I had upset her just by calling her kiddo.  And then when that guy had pushed her down, she seemed more upset that I had punched him. 

Anyway, I quietly left Aurora in the safety of the Mansion… and my chicken noodle soup.

Leave it to Beavers: Aurora 20

The sun was just beginning to rise and I was still running bare foot through the streets.  I was headed home.  I just wanted to hide.  And then I realized … all my things were back at the bar.  My purse, my clothing, my phone, wallet… everything.  How was I going to get into my apartment?  I would have to get the landlord to let me in, but she wouldn’t be up for a couple hours so I stopped running and just began to walk.  I felt so alone and depleted bare foot walking in the early morning with nothing but my thoughts for company. 

Did I over-react?  I hope I didn’t hurt him.  He will never forgive me.  He probably thinks I am crazy.  Maybe, I am crazy?  How could a perfect night end so horribly??  Right now, I will be just happy if we are still friends.

I was almost to my apartment when I noticed Piper waiting for me.  She had my belongings.  I hugged and thanked her.  She asked if I was alright.  I nodded.  Did I hurt him?  She waved that off.  He got what he deserved.  That is why women are smarter than men.  Right!  We can have an emotional reaction to something stupid that they say and they are still too stupid to know what they did wrong.  Piper made complete sense.  But should I maybe apologize?  No.  Just let him wonder.  You really like him, don’t you?  Ahhh, no!  He is annoying.  And besides, we are just friends.  She smiled like she knew something and said good luck with that.  She hugged me again and left.

I was tired, but I ended up taking a bath anyway just to relax and warm up.  The weather was definitely getting cooler.  I crawled into bed naked except for Jake’s tee shirt.  I liked that.  I liked his smell and it seemed to comfort me.  Even though I was still upset with him.  I wonder if he misses his shirt or even knows where it is. 

My phone was ringing.  I must have dozed off.  It was Ivan.  What did he want?  Hello.  Are you alright?  Yes, I’m fine.  It seems like everyone is asking me that.  I heard what happened.  Is there something going on between you and Jake?  Did he hurt you?  No and no.  If you say the word, he is so fired!  NO!  Why did you slap him?  Ivan, I was exhausted from all the work I put into the shoot and I had some champagne and it was the wee hours of the morning and he said something that hurt my feelings and I was emotional and just reacted.  So, I slapped him and I am super sorry I did.  If anyone is to blame, it’s me.  Okay?  Alright, and you are sure there is nothing going on between you two?  Nothing, I promise.  We are just friends.  And when we fuck, he cannot remember doing it!!!  I didn’t say that part.  Ivan told me to get some rest and said goodbye.

Jake getting fired would be like the ultimate disaster!  What the hell was I thinking???  I made up my mind.  That was it.  No more messing with Jake.  I was just going to be professional and there was going to be nothing going on between us.  Absolutely nothing.  And I meant it.  Like 100% nothing, nada, zippo to do with that annoying man with that irritating lock of hair that hung down his forehead.  God, that felt good… as I sniffed his shirt.

A couple weeks later Ivan called with the details about the next shoot.  Part of me was hoping he wouldn’t call.  I didn’t know how or what I would say to Jake.  Anyway, he said the shoot was going to be done in the rain.  I hate rain.  I didn’t want to do the shoot.  I didn’t want to see … and I hate rain!  Snow is okay.  You can brush snow off.  Rain soaks into your clothes and is cold.  Be professional.  Right.  He said the next forecast for rain we would meet at the Mansion.  He didn’t really care so much about our clothes, but did suggest bringing some extra clothing for after.  Great.  Sometimes you just have a bad feeling.

It was about a week later and rain was in the forecast.  We all met at the Mansion.  I didn’t say anything to Jake and only briefly acknowledged Piper and Josie.  I was in miserable mood.  I don’t like being in the rain.  At all.  And to top it all off, I felt like I was coming down with something.  I was a little light headed.  There was a van in the garage and we all piled in and set off for downtown.  I could hear rain drops hitting the roof of the van.  I don’t think anyone was happy.  Jake said he would like to get 3 separate locations at different times of the day.  Great.  But he did add that he would try to make quick work so we would not be out too long.  At least there was that. 

It was a Sunday, so, the city was fairly quiet at this time.  Jake chose a fountain shot first.  I felt cold and wet even before I got out of the van.  In actuality, the sun was still out even when the rain started.  It didn’t offer much warmth.  We posed like wet kittens as the rain fell on us.  Or maybe, wet beavers.  Although, I have no idea how a beaver would pose.  We were soon soaked through.  Jake said he was finished and asked if anyone wanted some nice hot cider.  We all agreed.  Anything hot.  The cider warmed my chest as we drove around looking for another spot.  What a miserable day. 

A few hours later, frustrated, Jake found a city bench.  The rain was falling heavier now.  Ice cold rain coming down on our heads.  I started sneezing at some point.  My nose started to run, but I couldn’t really wipe it in the rain.  No one was really talking that much and no one really wanted to be doing this.  It was the worst shoot.  Again, Jake took his pics.  A job was a job.  We hung in there.  Jake offered to get us some hot lattes.  Yes, anything!  Now, we drove around again.  Jake put the heat on high and the van was very warm.  Even wet, it was still nice.  So nice, no one wanted to get out. 

The final stop Jake chose was a bus stop.  There were trees all around it and even though the rain had slightly lessened we were still getting wet.  It was so depressing.  I was sneezing more.  My head was starting to get hot even in the rain.  I did not want to be there!  Then these three guys came walking up and were like trying to hit on us or something.  I mean my nose is running.  I am … fucking wet!  And miserable!  I told the one guy off.  I cannot remember what I said exactly.  Something along the lines of Go Fuck Yourself!  Then, the basterd pushed me and I fell backwards onto the ground and into a puddle of mud!  He laughed at me.  I was in shock.  And then, Jake was there.  He smashed the guy’s face!  He literally, smashed the guy’s face with one punch!  I mean smashed!  Blood flew from his nose as he hit the ground!  And then I was in Jake’s arms.  I think I was crying.  My nose was running too and I wiped my face on Jake’s shirt.  It was the only thing available.  Piper was next to us and said something about a fever.  I hoped she was okay.  My head was aching.  Jake got us all back into the van and drove back to the Mansion.  I was so happy to be out of the rain and yet I was so cold!!!  I couldn’t really think. 

I remember someone undressing me and running me a bath.  Was it Jake?  I was relieved to get my muddy, wet clothes off and climb into the warm nurturing water of the bath.  I was still sneezing and I was still cold.  But the water was nice.  Someone helped me out of the tub, dried me off, and got me into some warm pajamas.  I really had no clue exactly what was going on.  The cold rainy shoot was like a million hours in the past.  I was led downstairs and put on the sofa and then covered with a blanket.  I swallowed a couple pills with water.  I just sat like a zombie.  Later, I think it was Jake, fed me some soup.  It tasted really good.  It warmed my chest.  I think it was chicken noodle…  I was speaking, I think.  And then, I think Jake kissed me… no.  That couldn’t have happened.  But he did pick me up and carried me upstairs.  I was still cold.  He put me on the bed and then he was beside me like we were spoons.  He put his arm around me and I felt his warm hand slip under my pajama top and caress my breasts.  That felt nice.  We were covered up cozy.  I felt his heat.  I needed that.  I was so cold.  My feet were like ice.  I enjoyed his smell… his warmth… his hand on my tits.  I closed my eyes.

I was in a park.  Well, not really.  It was like I was hovering over the park, but it seemed normal.  There were these two people walking away from me.  It was a man and a woman and they were holding hands.  And she was wearing a backpack with a fishing rod… and she had a camera… strange.  I just kept staring at them.  And even though they were walking away from me the distance remained the same… like a photograph.  But it wasn’t so much what they were doing, but this overwhelming impression of acceptance and happiness.  And it was odd, but I felt happy for them… it was a feeling I don’t think I have ever felt.  Peaceful acceptance.  I liked this dream.

I woke up feeling … good.  I could not for the life of me remember what I had dreamt.  Just that it was positive, I think.  Jake was gone.  I knew we had slept together because I could still smell him.  I must have been sick.  In fact, I knew I was sick.  I just couldn’t remember much more than that.  On the nightstand I noticed a note.  It was from Jake.  It was written.  He had nice writing.  It was for me.  He had never given me anything before.  I have his shirt, but I stole that.  He said there was still chicken noodle soup leftover and that I should have some more.  And then he wrote I hope you are feeling better Sweetie, Jake.  I felt my heart skip a beat.  Boy, does he know how to slap!  I tried not to, but I felt a tear run down my cheek.  How can you go from the worst day of your life to one of the best days of your life???

I got out of bed and went downstairs and sure enough there was chicken noodle soup still on the stove.  It wasn’t chicken noodle soup out of the can.  Jake had actually made me chicken noodle soup from scratch.  I had to have some.  I warmed some in the microwave and it tasted soooo goooood!  I felt good.  After, and I don’t know why, I went back upstairs and crawled into bed.  I could still smell him.  I looked again at the note and ran my finger over Sweetie and then ran my finger over Jake.  I don’t understand or recognize … what I am feeling.  I am thinking about Jake smashing that guy’s face… and picking me up… and he made me soup… chicken noodle soup… and feeding me… and carrying me to bed… and his hand on my tits… and the note he had written for me… all the things he did for me… for me.  I don’t know what it means.

I close my eyes… confused.  I let my dreams take me away.

Leave it to Beavers: Jake 21

Summer had ended.  The trees in the city were all turning fantastic colours in preparation for Winter.  I liked Fall.  The Fall season brought with it a whole host of smells and new hearty foods.  The first few cool nights offered relief from the summer heat and it made sleeping more pleasant.

There was a park near the city centre and with the sun still offering plenty of warmth, I took up my camera and headed out to see if I could capture some nice shots.  It was a Saturday and there were parents there watching their kids play in the leaves.  Couples walked by.  Some even had dogs.  I walked along the river’s edge and found a nice bench to sit at and enjoy my coffee.  It was a beautiful day.  There were people canoeing.  And I took photos of everything.  It made me feel alive.  Like I was a witness to some fantastic event.  A witness.  Capturing life with a camera.  Moving among people… but not really belonging.  But not just people… animals as well.  Geese and ducks were swimming being fed by people little bits of bread and seed.  Each photo I took captured a moment that soon past.  It was like I was on the outside looking in at life.  Strange thoughts.

I spent a couple hours in the park before heading home.  One of the nice things about doing my own pictures is that I really didn’t have to share them with anyone.  Almost like I was a spy.  I downloaded the pics on my laptop and looked them over.  They made me smile.  People just doing people things.  It was really no different than my plans to photograph wild beavers in the wild.  They would be pictures of them doing beaver things in their world.  Not mine.  I skimmed over to the folder marked DICE and started looking at the photos I had taken of the women.  I remember the first time at the hotel and still being shocked at what they did.  But when I was given the contract… it was like an opportunity I could not pass up.  And even though I didn’t think about it, or tried not to, I considered myself just a witness.  Safe behind the camera.  And now, we were friends?

Ivan called and said the next shoot would be a Viking setting.  The ladies would be wearing animal skins and carrying swords and he said they were already being fitted out.  It would be a night setting at a corn field and there would be smokers to offer a mystical atmosphere and the women would have non-permanent tattoos all over their bodies.  He said I must be getting pretty excited because there were like only four more shoots left in the contract.  Yeah.  Really exciting.  I told him I just hope it wouldn’t be too cold out.  The last time Aurora got sick from the cold rain.  He said he heard about it and he even apologized.  He does not want any of the ladies getting sick.  He offered to have outdoor heaters placed at the shoot.  That was something. 

The day arrived and I drove over to the Mansion and parked in the garage.  Piper, Josie and Aurora were in the garage on like fold out beds entirely naked getting artistic tattoos.  They each had an artist.  Naturally, I took some photos of this interesting process.  Josie had a slight advantage with her large snake tattoo.  I asked Aurora if she was feeling better and she just nodded and gave me a little smile.  Good… that’s really good.  I left it at that.  After the tattoos they got into their outfits.  Piper had wolf skin.  Josie had deer.  And Aurora had beaver skins.  That was interesting.  They all had small swords, bows, and even quivers.  All fake of course.  Just props.  After she was dressed, Aurora asked if I wanted to touch her beaver fur.  I laughed awkwardly and said I have felt fur before.  And then I thought how stupid that sounded.  Again, she just smiled.  She was the strangest person I have ever met.  Touch her beaver fur?  Silly. 

We climbed into a van and headed off to the corn field.  By this time, it was early evening.  And although it was somewhat cool, it was not as cold as the last time and the skies were clear.  In fact, the moon was full and just beginning to advance over the corn field!  How lucky was that?  The smokers were hidden and soon filled the field and nearby wood line with a misty smoke.  There was just enough lighting to bounce off the smoke giving an almost dreamlike scene.  The ladies positioned themselves just slightly within the woods.  And I snapped photos of them emerging into the field sometimes carrying their bows and sometimes carrying their swords.  It could have been Halloween it was so magical.  Like a fantasy.  Their animal skins barely covered them.  They did a wide variety of poses.  Enchanting poses.  The moon was like right above them and the stars radiated with light.  It was intense and I snapped and snapped. 

They took a brief break and warmed up by the heaters.  Their bodies began to glisten with sweat and they had a bottle of fake blood that they added to their bodies.  Wow!  And then, they were back at it.  They even did fake battle poses.  I laughed.  It was just so incredible.  It was almost like this was who they really were.  Something out of a dream … or a nightmare.  And it was soon over.  Just as quickly as it had started.  Moments now captured by my camera.  There was a station set up near the heaters where the women could wash themselves off a bit.  All the assistants began packing up and everyone shook hands.  It had been a very successful shoot. 

We piled back into the van to head back to the Mansion.  I felt good and didn’t really want the night to end.  I asked them if they wanted to go out for pizza and beer.  They loved the idea!  They had all brought a change of clothes… just in case, and got out of their animal skins.  Strange, how seeing them naked just became routine… for me.  Not that I stared.  They were still covered in fake tattoos, but that was okay. 

I found a local pizzeria… no, not the one I had worked at with the vegan named… something.  We took a booth and Aurora sat across from me next to Josie.  We soon had pepperoni pizza and beers.  Everyone was super relaxed and we talked about the shoot and even the past shoots.  I said how Aurora did an amazing job on the Sensational Bar shoot.  But I didn’t dwell too much on it.  We were able to laugh and just enjoy each other’s company.  We talked about our families.  Aurora said she was an orphan at birth and adopted, but she said her parents were very nice people.  I didn’t know that.  I talked about growing up at Easter Bay, fishing and hunting.  I then mentioned how after this last shoot there were only like 3 more shoots to go.  I don’t know why I brought that up.  But… we all just went quiet.

It was time to head back to the Mansion.  We did have a great time.  We were friends.  As I drove though, it seemed like we were all lost in our thoughts.  The night was over and it felt like it as I pulled into the garage of the Mansion.  I put my gear into my car and turned towards the ladies.  Piper gave me a hug… and then Josie… and then Aurora came up to me.  On tiptoes, her arms went around my neck.  I could smell her… her scent… her sweat.  I could feel her warmth… her breathing… her heart beat.  She whispered in my ear, thanks for everything Jake.  And then she kissed my cheek.  And let me go. 

Hey, you guys need any help?  Like getting cleaned up?  All those tattoos?  I don’t want to break my contract.  I smiled as if that was a joke.  They all shook their heads and said they were fine.  Just tired from the shoot.  Okay… are you sure?  Yes, Jake.  You can go.  I climbed into my melted soft serve vanilla ice cream smelling Chevy Nova and left feeling … I don’t know what I was feeling.  Lost.  I guess.  I drove home. 

It had been a great night.  A lot was accomplished.  Right?  And what did she mean?  Thanks for everything Jake?  It had this ring of finality like it was more than just a simple goodbye.  After all, we had like three more shoots to go.  What happens when it’s all over?  Are we just going to fade from each other’s lives?

I got into my apartment and sat on the couch.  Brooding.  Trying to make sense… of what?  Aurora’s white lace panties with the faint yellow stain were soon in my hand up to my face.  They always calmed me down.  I inhaled.  And as I inhaled, I closed my eyes thinking of her scent… her whispering in my ear… the way she smiled… like she did when she was sleeping… her kiss… not the kiss on my cheek, but the kiss of her lips on mine… why did she kiss me? 

But I am professional.  The photographer.  I am a witness to events.  Did I cross the line when we became friends?  They live in one world and I live in my world.  Their world is fantasy and mine is reality.  My job is to capture images of their fantasy world.  To be a witness.  That is what I am being paid for.  It’s safer this way.

Not … to be a participant.

Halloween did eventually arrive and I went out in the early evening to capture photos of the myriad little ghosts and goblins.  Trick or Treaters out gathering their supplies of candy.  It seemed funny how a child’s life revolves around innocent fantasy.  All their costumes and excitement and Jack-o-Lanterns and yards filled with fake zombies and graves.  Creepy music flowing from some of the houses being accosted by werewolves and witches and princes and princesses.  The make-believe of an event more for children than adults.  An attempt to keep them innocent. 

And then we grow up.  Searching for some sort of mature morality.  But we still have fantasies.  I found mine with my passion… even maybe an obsession for photographing wild beaver in the wild.

I wonder what Aurora fantasizes about?

Leave it to Beavers: Aurora 22

I feel lost.  Lost in my thoughts.  Lost in my feelings.  Lost in my life.  My world has been turned upside down.  And yet I still held onto hope.  Hope for what?  Jake had left me a note.  And in it he had called me Sweetie.  It was so unexpected.  I had recently slapped him.  And yet… he protected me.  To do all that he did does shows some level of caring, doesn’t it?  And that means he must actually have feelings for me, right?  And that is where I am… lost.  I don’t want him to have feelings for me!  I wanted him to … want me for sex!  To make him suffer… or, to make me feel good about myself… or, to make me feel in control?  I don’t want to be… owned.  But it felt so nice… just being liked… and cared about.  Without sex.  Being accepted for just being me.  BUT, sex is who I am!!!  These feelings are like … alien to me.  Just be his friend.  Right.  I don’t understand just being “friends”.

And these are the lost thoughts that occupy my mind.  I don’t know what I want.  I think of the Animal Sex we had.  So violent and so passionate.  Painful.  But we were in sync.  We both wanted it.  No.  Wait.  Jake didn’t know what he was doing.  Yes, we came together, and yet, we were from two different worlds.  And now that I think back it was always that way when we had sex.  It was just me.  There was no Jake.  It was like the Animal Sex was the culmination … the turning point.  And it was Animal Sex.  But does that make us animals?  And if Jake wasn’t there… then, that would make me… the only animal? 

Ivan called and said the next shoot would be outside again.  Great.  He actually apologized for the last shoot.  He had heard that I got sick.  He said no more shoots in the rain.  I didn’t tell him that, well, the last shoot turned out far better than expected.  He said the next shoot we would be dressed up like Pix.  What are Pix?  Old Scottish clan tribes.  They wore animal skins and carried swords and shields and bows.  Sort of like Vikings.  Oh, I know Vikings.  I watch that show.  Well, imagine yourself as Vikings then.  It doesn’t really matter all that much.  The shoot was going to be in some farmer’s field and at night.  But he promised there would be large heaters so everyone would be kept warm.  I asked if I could have a beaver skin outfit.  Sure.  Jake would definitely like that.  I was starting to look forward to this shoot.  Being a warrior princess!  I liked to dress up and imagine myself as someone else.  Oh, I said goodbye to Ivan and as usual, he said he would call back later with further details.

And so, he did.  I met up with Piper and Josie at the Mansion.  Our fitted costumes were already there.  And sure enough mine was like a beaver bikini.  It was nice and soft.  There was a personal trainer that gave us the basics on weaponry.  The weapons were just props anyway.  We had our hair braided and a tattooist tattooed our entire bodies with non-permanent ink.  I don’t understand the appeal of tattoos.  I know Josie has a snake that winds up her leg with its head hidden by her pubic hair.  That is kind of cool.  I have seen the head close up!  Jake showed up just as we were getting inked.  He asked how I was feeling?  I’m okay.  I really have no clue what to say to him!  He is so annoying!  Well, not really.  Jake took some pictures and I even managed to smile a bit.  Stuck my tongue out at him.  I asked him if he wanted to finger my beaver.  He just laughed.  I was serious!  So, I laughed too. 

After being fully Vikingized, we hopped in the van with our gear and adorned in animal skins and Jake drove out to the farmer’s field.  It was later in the evening and there were smokers and fires and yes, space heaters too.  An entire crew was set up with extra eerie like lighting.  The field and the woods around it were filled with fake smoke.  I wasn’t exactly looking forward to going into the woods.  It was possible there might be white rabbits.  But Jake was there and that was comforting.  I felt protected with him around.  And there was the crew. 

The woods were really creepy.  I gritted my teeth and we got to work.  Jake taking his photos of the DICE as warrior queens.  Warrior queens wearing hardly any clothing brandishing weapons they knew hardly anything about.  We emerged from the woods like vicious stalking hunters who would probably scream at the site of a mouse.  The smoke wrapped around our tattooed bodies and cast haunting, swirling shadows.  Jake just kept snapping his photos.  Lighting was hardly needed as there was a full moon above the field.  We then took a little break and stood by the heaters.  I could see bats flitting around in the moonlight.  Someone brought out some fake blood and we applied it to our arms as if we had been in some major battle.  And then we posed again in our best warrior like poses.  Blood dripping from our swords.  I had a lot of fun.  In fact, I almost forgot that we weren’t Vikings.  I didn’t even think about sex.  We did expose our tattooed tits and an oily based blood was lightly sprayed on us.  We even had blood dripping from our chins!  We looked fierce!  But it was still late Fall and even with the heaters, the air was cool.  Jake finished his photos and there was a place where we could wash off most of the blood and some of the tattoos. 

The crew was left to clean up.  And Jake drove us back the Mansion.  On our way, he asked if we wanted to go for some pizza and sodas.  Yes!  More time to spend with Jake!  I was so caught up with being a Viking princess, the time just went by incredibly fast and I wasn’t thinking about Jake.  Like at all.  So, this was perfect.  Jake stopped at some pizza joint and we took a booth.  I sat across from Jake.  I thought that was safer.  Safer from what???  We ordered Hawaiian pizza and soda pops.  We started telling stories of growing up.  We laughed and Jake talked a lot about Easter Bay and hunting and fishing and exploring and his parents and animals … did I say he talked a lot.  Oh, Piper and Josie talked too.  I can’t exactly remember what they said… I told them… really, I was speaking to Jake… how I was an orphan and told them, Jake, about my adoptive parents and how they were nice and treated me well.  Blablabla…  I don’t remember talking that much with anyone about my life… but Jake, did seem genuinely interested… in me.

And then Jake said the strangest thing.  There were only three more shoots left.  And everything just stopped.  We just looked at each other not saying anything.  And finished our pizza and sodas… It was like a magical moment had just disappeared and was replaced by … reality. 

Jake drove us all back to the Mansion.  Nothing was really said.  I had intended to have Jake help me get cleaned up, but for some reason I changed my mind.  Even though the thought of his hands on me was very hard to resist.  And if he did help me wash off the tattoos, then we would end up having sex… and somehow, that just wasn’t appealing.  Jake even asked if we needed any help getting cleaned up.  But we said we were fine and he could go home.  And then, he asked again!  Piper and Josie gave him a brief hug.  And I whispered in his ear Thanks for everything Jake.  And kissed his cheek.  He seemed a bit disappointed.  But I watched him as he drove away.  What the hell was I thinking??? 

We went inside and soon we were in the shower washing each other.  The shower was nice and hot.  And I did enjoy touching Piper and Josie.  They both had some nice flesh.  I wasn’t really into sex though.  There has to be something wrong with me?  This used to be my thing!  And I kissed them, and fingered them, and licked them… but it wasn’t doing anything for me!  And I think they knew that.  No full-on fuck mode.  And why the hell wasn’t Jake here???  After all the times we have been naked together in the shower under the guise of helping us clean up, this was like the one time we could have used his help!  I mean I am naked in the shower with Piper and Josie and I am thinking about Jake!  But not sexually… I mean not really sexually.  I just wanted… him here.  God, he is so annoying!  Even when he is not here! 

And… there is only going to be three more shoots.

Piper and Josie ended up leaving together.  I decided to stay overnight at the Mansion.  By myself.  This was not how my night was supposed to end.  Alone.  I went into the master bedroom where Jake and I… had been together.  The bed seemed so empty and lifeless.  I was wearing the shirt I stole from Jake.  I could smell him.  I got under the covers and curled up in a fetal position.  It was soon all going to be over.  I wanted Jake to be here with me, but I was glad he wasn’t.  What was I going to do?  Have I become obsessed?  With Jake?  And what would happen … when it was over?  How was I to keep going on with my life? 

I cried.  I sobbed.  I cried myself to sleep.

I was swimming.  In a lake.  The water was warm and I seemed quite buoyant.  I swam easily like I was made for the water.  There was a dock and I swam around it.  This way and that.  I guess I was exploring.  I dove down into the water.  This was fun.  Finally, I walked out onto a beach like area.  The sun was warm and it felt good.  I looked up the hill and noticed a young boy watching me.  Oh well.  I wandered around the beach picking up things.  I ended up sitting down and when I looked up the hill again, the young boy was gone.  He must have found something more interesting to look at than me.  I went back into the water and decided to find some adventures at another part of the lake.  I swam away.