Leave it to Beavers: Jake 17

I hardly ever sleep on my stomach, but I must have been so exhausted that I just passed out.  My body ached.  And yet, there was also this overwhelming sense of exhilaration or… accomplishment maybe.  I rolled over and stared up at the ceiling and without thinking I reached out and found the white lace panties with the faint yellow stain.  I put them to my face and inhaled.  More than anything, they always seemed to relax me.  I had become very familiar with their scent.  I closed my eyes and just relaxed.  

Sometime later, I awoke.  Well, I don’t think I slept long if any, and decided to get up.  My lip was still swollen and my earlobe hurt, but for the most part I was fine.  I loaded up the pics from the prior day’s shoot, I think it was yesterday, onto my computer and sent them to Ivan.  I thought they had turned out very well.  I enjoyed working with the DICE, even more so now that we were friends.  At least, they said we were friends.  I couldn’t help, but look over the previous shoots.  The first hotel shoot where they were just in lingerie.  I remember being in shock at what … they did to each other.  Even now, part of me questions whether their behaviour then and now is even normal.  And, whether my photographing them is acceptable.  But then, what is normal?  And as I look at the photos, I see them as not a fantasy, but human beings.  My friends.  And although I am more comfortable speaking and interacting with Piper and Josie, I have gotten to see a sensitive side to Aurora.  I don’t think a razor has ever touched her.  She has no tattoos.  Wears no make up or jewellery.  Not even perfume.  And yet, I always felt this disconcerting power emanating from her.  Aggressive.  Maybe that really changed when we went to the cabin in the mountains.  She clearly displayed a vulnerability.  It made me look at her differently.  More human.  Of course, we did sleep together.  Not SLEEP sleep, but just sleep.  Twice in fact.  She smelled nice and she was warm.  I remember her heart beating against my chest and my hand on her chest.  And her kissing me when I carried her from the lake… in her drug addled state though so it really meant nothing.  Then, there was the baseball pics and the soft serve vanilla ice cream cones.  The melted ice cream all over the back seat of my car while the ladies… did what they did.  My car still has that smell.  And that is when I found the white lace panties with the faint yellow stain.  I did plan on returning them.  Did Aurora leave them on purpose?  She has never brought them up.  Part of me thought she just forgot.  But what if she hasn’t forgotten about them?  Well… that just doesn’t make sense.  So much has happened.  I was honestly going to quit after the first hotel shoot until I was paid and then the contract was even more and I couldn’t refuse the job.  I remember at the time thinking, I will just take the photos and complete the project and keep things professional.  But now, we’re friends… I look forward to seeing them.  I enjoy working with them, but I also enjoy laughing with them.  They have become part of my life.  I guess to a certain extent… I care about them.  Unconsciously, I continue to look through the past photos.  It seems like a dream now. 

About a week later, I was sitting on my couch thinking about watching… anything on TV, just to pass the time, my lip and earlobe were much better, it was raining outside, and a strange thought crossed my mind.  I really don’t know what made me think about it, but I remember when I was younger asking my parents how they had met.  I guess at some point everyone wonders the same thing.  Where did we come from?  I asked my Dad first and his explanation was a little far-fetched even hearing it as a kid.  He said that he had discovered Mom in the woods while searching for foxes.  And he thought she was quite a fox.  So, he clubbed her over the head and dragged her to his man cave where he dazzled her with his intelligence.  And they have been together ever since.  Right.  I then asked Mom.  She said ask your father.  I already did.  Oh, did he tell you that he clubbed me over the head.  Yes.  She laughed.  Mom, please.  Okay, it wasn’t quite like he told you.  We were at a high school dance and I had noticed your father talking to a couple of his buddies.  He looked handsome.  I had seen him before.  His buddies left him alone to go talk to some girls.  He seemed so alone.  By himself.  So, I walked over and I asked him if he would like to dance.  And he danced with you?  And that was it?  Do you want to hear this or not?  Yes, sorry.  In fact, he turned me down.  I didn’t think he liked me.  But I was determined.  Later in the summer, I saw him in a hardware store looking at fishing gear.  I asked him if he remembered me and he looked a bit sheepish and said yes.  He then asked if I liked to fish.  Which I didn’t.  Of course, I said yes, would you take me fishing?  We ended up going out on his parents’ boat.  It was a beautiful summer day and I had absolutely no interest in fishing.  We anchored out into a little cove and set about fishing.  I asked him if he would like to kiss me.  He was shy. but do not tell him I told you that.  Okay, then what happened?  We kissed and I can still remember that first kiss.  So, when he tells you he clubbed me, it was in fact the other way around.  We never did dance, but we fished a lot.  And, we have been together ever since.

Funny, the things we think about.  My memories.  Their memories.  I wonder what Aurora thinks about.

Ivan finally called.  He said the last photos were very racy and the investors really liked them.  I didn’t admit this to him, but I couldn’t recall much of the photo shoot so, in fact, they must have been racy they were such a blur.  He said the next photo shoot was being arranged right now.  He thought I would really enjoy it.  It was going to be in a saloon/pub.  The down side was that the shoot would have to take place in the wee hours of the morning when the place was closed.  There would be animal trainers and a couple actors as well.  Animal trainers?  Yes, for the dogs.  I am to photograph the DICE at a saloon with dogs… and actors.  Yup!  Don’t worry about anything.  I worked everything out with Aurora and she will fill you in.  A couple days later, Ivan called back and gave me the date and location.  He said the ladies would meet me there so I could just go directly to the shoot and use my own car.  Okay. 

I arrived at the pub, called The Sensational Pub, at about 3 am.  Everyone was already there.  Piper, Josie, and Aurora all seemed very concerned about my well being.  I’m fine.  Are you guys okay?  They nodded and said they were okay.  Great.  The bar was incredible.  A lot of wood and polished brass and leather covered bar stools.  The lighting was perfect.  The entire atmosphere gave a sense of an old English pub.  Aurora took my hand and walked me through the bar.  She introduced me to the dog trainers and the dogs.  There was an English Bull dog, of course, a Beagle, and brown Labrador retriever.  I still had no idea what the dogs were for.  Aurora laughed.  She showed me a poker room that was located in the back of the bar.  Interesting.  The “actors” were a burly bartender and an old man that was to be a patron.  I began to get the picture.  No pun intended.  I laughed.  This was going to be a fun shoot.  Aurora said she was glad I liked it.  With a smile.  We soon got down to work.

The ladies were dressed in evening dresses.  Very expensive and yet, obviously revealing, dresses.  Aurora wore white, Piper had red and Josie wore yellow.  They had on high heels and Aurora wore lipstick and earrings and even a necklace.  I was somewhat surprised since she hated that stuff.  I guess she was going all in.  I would soon find out that they had matching panties, but none of them wore bras.  They began by posing at the bar on the leather bar stools.  The old man patron was at the far end of the bar acting oblivious to the women.  The bartender’s part was to pretend to polish glasses with his back to the women.  It was awesome!  And the dogs were lined up staring at them while they posed!  So funny.  And they posed.  They posed with their legs spread.  Cupping their … well, upper endowments.  The dogs licked their lips and the old man patron drank his beer.  They hiked up their dresses to their waists and dropped their panties to their knees spreading … the dogs were great sports and stared fixated up at their … parts.  The bartender kept cleaning his beer mugs.  And I kept snapping my pics.  The dresses were soon off and the ladies drank beer from beer mugs and poured beer on themselves and the dogs licked up any beer that was on the floor.  You cannot make this up!  We then went back to the poker room … with the dogs.  What was going to happen here?  Aurora smiled.  She, at least, appeared to be coordinating everything.  The trainers got the dogs dressed up in like gambling outfits and sat them interspersed between the ladies who were still naked.  Oh!  I get it!  The idea was that they had been playing strip poker and the dogs were winning!  Wow!  This was great and I kept snapping pics.  The dogs would look at the women and the women would look somewhat defeated.  It was a lot of fun. 

Finally, it was over.  The DICE took selfies, with their dresses back on, with the dogs and their trainers, the old man and the bartender.  Everyone had a good time. 

Aurora came up to me still smiling.  Did you have fun?  Yes, it was a lot of fun.  She said she really wanted to do a more professional shoot and she hoped that she did all right.  I then said, words which I will never forget, like ever, You all did really good work, kiddo.  I said it with a smile on my face.  But… her smile slowly faded.  What?  Whack!!!  She slapped me!  I mean she hit me so hard my head spun.  It stung!  I had to blink quickly having lost focus.  I heard the front door of the bar open and close.  The dogs started barking and howling!  The trainers and actors were trying to calm the dogs down!  I looked at Piper and Josie.  They asked what I had said?  I told them.  They shook their heads and said I shouldn’t have said that.  Said WHAT?  Should I go after her?  They put up their hands and said emphatically, NO!! 

And that was the end of one of the best shoots we have had.  I still have no clue what I did or said that upset Aurora so much.  She is so strange.  I will never forget her sting.  I hope I don’t get fired.  But here is the thing I really don’t understand, the slap didn’t bother me or the thought of being fired, no, the thing that really bothered me the most was upsetting Aurora.  And I don’t understand why?

Leave it to Beavers: Aurora 18

What time is it?  I weakly open my eyes.  I am lying on my stomach.  I don’t think I have even moved.  I still cannot move.  I blink my eyes trying to focus.  I turn my head and see Piper and Josie sitting by the bed looking worried.  The events come back to me.  My bum hurts.  Piper leans in.  Are you okay?  Yeah.  Do you want us to call the police?  For what?  Well, he raped you.  No, he didn’t.  Although, it did hurt.  It also felt really good.  I have never experienced sex like that before.  Piper said we were like animals fucking.  Yeah, animal sex.  How long have I been out?  About 12 hours.  I am still exhausted… and sore.  Can you get me a couple painkillers?  Josie leaves and comes back.  They raise my head, because I am still so weak, and I take the medicine.  They asked if I wanted them to stay and I said no, you can go.  I will be fine.  Just need to rest a bit more.  And I closed my eyes and went back to sleep. 

It was late afternoon when I woke up again.  I was still tired and weak and although, my muscles, and ass hurt, I was able to take a shower and get cleaned up.  Even drying myself off was a major effort.  I got dressed, called a cab and went home.  It was all a blur.  It wasn’t just physical exhaustion.  I was also mentally depleted.  I crawled into my own bed, closed my eyes and once again, I was out. 

I woke up… again, and just stared at the ceiling.  I was trying to process what had happened.  Piper called it Animal Sex.  I had heard of make-up sex, but since I was never in a relationship, I didn’t know what that was like.  But Animal Sex?  That was definitely the most primal unrestrained sex I have ever had.  I realized that no one, or very few, could have ever had Animal Sex.  I mean Jake doesn’t know what he is doing.  He cannot remember having sex with me at all.  I know if he did, he wouldn’t have done what he did and therefore no Animal Sex.  Yes, I knew what was happening, but I was just as engaged and enraged and violent as he was.  I slapped him twice and yelled at him and it literally released the beast… the animal within him.  I will never slap him again.  A part of me was a little frightened by him.  What would he do next?  Choke me?  Or worse?  And yet, part of me wanted to have that same Animal Sex with him.  But … he wouldn’t remember.  I want him to know and yet I don’t want him to know.  I am confused and afraid.  I don’t understand my feelings.

I was sore for almost a week.  I had no sexual desires or impulses of any kind.  It was like they had been ripped out leaving me ravaged by new thoughts.  I had experienced sex on a level that I could only describe as the pinnacle of passion.  I realized that my out of body experience had changed the way I thought of sex.  It was no longer just a physical act.  It was definitely spiritual.  And Jake had given that to me.  Opened my mind to new possibilities.  I am a Spiritual Healer.  I always believed that was just a fancy or more politically correct way of saying escort.  Now, I wanted to connect with Jake emotionally.  I knew that would leave me in a vulnerable position.  I would have to become emotionally attached to him and not just physically.  Did I even want that?  And how?  What if I failed to get through to him?  I would be the one traumatized.

I decided I would have to interact with him in a way that was far more subtle.  Something that he would enjoy doing, but at the same time it would have to be work related.  Design a photo shoot.  One that I was more involved in setting up.  Now, where could that be?  We already had a western cowboy themed shoot so that was out.  I remember how stinky I was.  Seems so crazy now.  And it had absolutely no effect!  Accept on maybe the animals at the ranch.  What about a bar or saloon?  It doesn’t have to be another western theme, but it has potential. 

I called Ivan with my idea.  And he loved it.  He said the StarDreamers investors were just going over with him possible scenarios.  He said that we could be in evening dresses photographed sitting at an old-style saloon or pub even.  And it all developed from there.  We both looked around the town and I discovered the Sensational Pub!  It was perfect!  Ivan loved it.  We were both excited.  And I felt anticipation that Jake would also really like it.  Ivan worked with the owner and explained what he wanted and made the arrangements to come in after hours.  I wanted it to be so perfect.  And then I thought what about dogs.  I have no idea how I came up with that, but again, I called Ivan and he said dogs, what is the point?  They would be in the photos staring at us while we posed!  Oh, now he understood.  That would add a new dimension!  He liked it and said he would get to work on the dogs.  Later, he would call me back and said he worked out everything with the dogs and he also asked me, like as if this was MY project alone, about having a couple actors ignoring you while you posed with dogs looking at you.  Yes!  And they even have a poker room in the back so we could get some pictures there as well!  Who would have realized I would have so much fun arranging a shoot?  I couldn’t wait to work with Jake.  He would be so impressed!

I met with Piper and Josie at the mall and I guess Ivan told them this was my project and I would pick out the evening dresses, and jewellery and shoes and fancy underwear, anything I wanted to make the saloon shoot a success.  And did we go to town sparing nothing.  We had our hair done.  We had our nails done.  We picked out fancy jewellery… that was on a loan basis that Ivan arranged.  I don’t mind getting my hair done, but all the rest I would have preferred to … well, it just wasn’t me.  But then, this wasn’t for me!  It was for Jake.  We even picked out some make-up.  The things one must endure.  I almost, and I repeat almost, shaved!  But a line had to be drawn somewhere after all. 

At the time, I didn’t exactly realize what “after hours” meant.  It was going to take place in the wee hours of the morning.  Which was okay because well, we really had no choice.  I was so excited I arrived just as the pub was closing.  I met the actors and the old man and the man playing the bartender were very professional.  I met the dog trainers and their dogs and there were 3 types of dogs and I cannot remember what they were and I really didn’t care.  They were just props.  Piper and Josie showed up and we all got changed into our outfits.  I was just sooooo excited!!! 

Jake was the last to arrive and I literally flew to him in my white evening dress, high heeled shoes, red lipstick, bracelets, earrings, and necklace, and my white panties, although my white panties were covered… and okay, so I literally didn’t fly towards him.  In fact, I strolled casually towards him or… I don’t know… I was just sooooo excited to see him!  I pushed aside any thoughts of how annoying he was and tried to ignore that irritating lock of hair that hung down his forehead.  I took his hand and introduced him to the actors and the trainers and the dogs, although I didn’t know their names, and I even re-introduced him to Piper and Josie!  Just for fun.  He was really impressed with the pub and the entire set up!  I almost wet myself!  He liked it!  He liked what I had done!  It takes a lot to be so creative and it was almost like a special present just for him and his camera. 

And then we got to work.  The DICE posed at the bar on leather stools and the dogs were lined up in front of us staring and the old man sat at the end of the bar ignoring and the fake bartender pretending to be cleaning glasses and I made suggestions on different poses and I would ask Jake what he thought about us just posing with our dresses hiked up to our waists while we bent over and the dogs looked on and he gave the thumbs up and I knew he was taking pics and he was clearly having fun and then we pulled our panties down to our knees and then we pulled them off and spread our legs while the old man continued to ignore us drinking his beer and the dogs had their tongues hanging out and then our dresses came off and we posed nude with nothing but our jewellery and high heels and Jake kept snapping pics and we were all having a lot of fun!  The fake bartender poured us some champagne and we poured it onto ourselves and licked it off our bodies and the dogs were licking champagne off the floor and still Jake kept shooting.  It was incredible!  We then moved to the poker room and did some poses with the dogs in little gambling outfits.  The idea being the DICE were naked because they lost at strip poker to some dogs!  It was all in fun and the dogs, I have to admit were very well trained.  Finally, we took some selfies with the others involved raising glasses in a cheer with the dogs at our feet.  Of course, we put our dresses back on but no one seemed to mind. 

Finally, it was over.  I couldn’t believe how drained I was.  I wanted to talk to Jake and get his thoughts!  I hope he was proud of all my work.  Everyone was getting packed up and ready to leave.  I had to talk to him!  And no, I didn’t fly over to him.  I just walked over to him, still in my evening dress, and high heels, and red lipstick, and bracelets, and earrings, and necklace, and my white panties… although, I really tried to keep my thoughts off my panties.  He was packing up his camera.  Did you have fun tonight, Jake?  It was amazing!  It was so much fun.  I mean the dogs and the old man patron.  I cannot wait to see the pics.  I then told him how I so wanted to be professional and involved in the shoot.  I was talking to Jake!  It felt so good!

And then he said it.  You all did really good, kiddo.  I just looked at him.  I felt this boiling inside me!  KIDDO???  He looked at me bewildered and said, what?  I slapped him!  I FUCKING SLAPPED THAT SON OF BITCH AS HARD AS I FUCKING COULD!!!  I wanted to smash his face, but then I remembered the last time I slapped him and so I ran!  I was out the pub door so fast.  I heard the dogs howling and barking and hoped they were biting his nuts off!  I ran!  I didn’t know where I was running to… I just ran.  Have you ever seen movies where women are running with high heels and they pause to take them off and continue running with bare feet?  I always thought that was stupid.  I kicked off my shoes and threw them away and continued running to where I didn’t know.  I was upset and angry and he was a motherfucker and I was crying and I felt stupid and embarrassed… so I just ran.